violet

Why aren't I enough? why must there always be all these others in the background. How can you have a genuine moment with someone if they are supposedly having equal genuine moments with other people. Does it make a genuine moment less genuine? i think so. I live in a world where I want to be the focus. Where who I am and what I do is enough. What's hypocritical about this is I don't really want to give that type of devotion to anyone else, so is it really ok for me to wish it upon someone else to have that type of devotion to me.

I'm realizing the genuinety should be a word, and it should be used as a description of what most men I know are lacking.

At the same time, if you think of things in terms of friendship, if you love a friend it is possible to love another friend as equally. In a different way because each friend is different but really is the love for a friend any more or any less than another "best" friend. Generally no, you get the same warm fuzzy feeling, about a dear friend as you do about another dear friend with different degrees of fuzziness relating to which part of that friend you are talking about. So is it illogical to think that maybe there are some men in this world that may feel just as warm and fuzzy and genuine towards me in the same amount as another lady friend? Or is it always an unspoken feeling on the guys behalf that he really likes one of his many woman more than the others.

Portland is all about polyamorous..

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