violentlyhappy

i usually find myself begging for a night off, but not tonight!! tonight i need my mind occupied. my mind is racing... i think this winter is finally driving me stir crazy. it's the longest i can remember and i need a break. it's nights like these that reminds me how alone i truly am. all my high school buddies are either married or engaged or in a long ass relationships... none of who i ever really related to anyways. and everyone else is in similar situations or were never truly my friends to begin with. it's only going to get worse as i get older too... all these fuckers out here settle down so damn fast. all i want is to meet people who i relate to... people who have a positive outlook on life and try to make the best of any situation, is that so much to ask?

i've been talking about getting a second job for like ever... i guess now is the perfect time to do so. it'll keep my ass busy and occupied, allow me to meet some new people, help with my never ending debt by keeping me from going out every night and giving me extra cash to spend when i do. i have zero experience serving but i'm confident i could do it... i'll start out as bar back if i have to, i don't really care. just gotta find the right dive bar to do it in. which i'm sure are the hardest places to score jobs.. but i know different people that might be able to hook me up. maybe one of you fools?

time to make change.