violentlyhappy

how is it possible to be surrounded by people you know... friends, family, whatever... and still feel so alone. i'm sick and tired of just going through the motions. the only thing i feel is numb. life is so unsatisfying right now. all i have are distractions keeping me away from improving my life. i think i do much better on my own. i'm tired of relationships that aren't mutual. i'm tired of people liking me before they truly know me. nothing's natural. nothing feels right. i want to be inspired. i want to be motivated. i want to feel alive. i want a connection.

i want to stop thinking so much.