violently

Dude I lag. And suck. And think too much. And blah blah blah ad nauseum.

Shit to do today:

Finish laundry
Send my boss client names and addresses
Also send my boss some checks so I can get paid (good job Mary)
Hit the gym
Hit therapy
Hit work
Pick up scrips
Make appointment for my car to get fixed
Go grocery shopping
Clean my bathroom (the horror)

I miss my wife and I made her cry the other day ago. I suck.

Over and out.

Edit @ 4:50- I want to cry and scream and eat everything and sleep for a million hours and I want someone to hug and kiss me and tell me, hey dude you're flipping out over nothing, it's PMS, you're fine and I love you, and then give me a back rub and a kiss on the forehead and cuddle me.

But I guess I will have to be that person for myself. And that makes me want to cry more. Because I have no one I can rely on when it comes down to it. I'm fucking alone.

On the plus side tho, I finished everything on the list except cleaning my bathroom and mailing the checks to my boss. Guess I will do that tomorrow. Go me.