violently

So my cell phone is completely dead, my organizer is missing, my room is a mess, and I am frustrated and antsy and feeling overweight and irritated.

I spent all of this morning trying to file a claim for my phone, which I did LAST WEEK, but for some reason it didn't go through. So now I am phoneless until they decide to send me a new one. I also spent all my gym time on the phone with the assholes at my insurance company, so now I'm pissy. I have a client at 12, a drs appt at 2, and then I have to speed to the gym for 3 hours before my most wonderful and worthwhile anger management class.

I also need to crochet some straps for a tube tob of mine that will not stay up because hey guess what, I have no boobs. So good luck to me trying to find time and patience to do this task which needs to be done before tomorrow.

I think part of me is irritated because I feel so slovenly and disgusting. I have been spending all of my free time at the gym, so there is no reason to put on makeup or do my hair, or get dressed up pretty because I will just get sweaty all over again and ruin it. I mean yesterday I had to shower 3 times. Plus, there is nowhere to go. And in the mood I have been in, drinking is not going to help me feel any better or thinner or more productive.

I wish I would get kidnapped. I need an adventure. I am seriously thinking about using my r/t ticket to randomly fly to NY, get inked, and possibly get laid. Like tomorrow. If there is a reason why I should NOT do this, let me know, otherwise I think I may run off to NY very fucking soon. Hell and if that happens, I'll take the redeye and maybe I can shoot a set for SG in the airport. Naked pix of me in front of a goddamned airplane. Woo. We can all go fucking blind now.

At least tomorrow evening through Monday I will be able to take a break from the gym and thus be able to look somewhat like a normal girl. I hope. God I feel gross.

Alright, I'm off to clean and then to work. Fleece.

P.S. I have been crying all fucking day. I suck.