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A change of events far sooner than expected.

I went to the wedding last night only to ditch out as soon as the ceremony was over. It was the most depressing this I've ever been to. I left almost in tears going, oh fuck no one will ever want to marry me, and then I was like, but I don't even care to get married, and then I cried more cus I confused myself.

Got home, watched some TV, then got online and ended up talking to dude. End result?

Nick and I are going to work things out and take things slow. Saw him last night and he wouldn't let me out of his arms. I mean I fell asleep on him, he wouldn't let me go. I basically called him on being an asshole and I guess he realized I was right. Things are going to be different from here on out. Especially since I refuse to drink around him AT ALL. If he gets smashed around me I'll just leave. We don't have problems when theres no booze, so I guess that solves that.

I get to see him and Pat (yay finishing my sleeve) on Friday at his (Nick's) house because we are officially trying to make shit work and thus I am allowed back into the circle of tyrants.

In the meantime I need to figure out how to make a lot of money really fast. Tomorrow I am going out to wealthy areas and leaving my business cards and brochures at salons, golf courses, bridal shops, maternity shops, tanning salons, and vitamin and health food stores if they'll let me. I need more clients asap. And I really need to get this job on Wednesday- it's at a Physical Therapy Clinic, so I'm sure I could get some potential clients from there too, as well as manage their office. Either way it'd be a steady paycheck till the money from training starts rolling in.

Also buying a lotto ticket or some shit, maybe a scratcher, just in case.

Oh, and if anyone needs me to clean their house or wash their car, or dig a ditch for someone who needs offing, I am whoring myself out for shit like that too. I just need to make cash cus I have a few unexpected bills coming up that I just do not have the money for.

Tomorrow I also must study, get my ass to the gym, clean my room AGAIN, clean my car AGAIN, and put together a bunch of shit I don't use or wear anymore and start selling shit on ebay, including advertising space on my boobs haha. But seriously, I've got some first edition Stephen Kings, some sports equipment, a grip of clothes from when I was bigger- including a $400 BeBe jacket that is just too fucking big for me now , and so forth. I also have some black market shit too haha. Seriously people, I have clenbuterol- a grip of packs, so if anyone knows anyone that is into roiding it up, lemme know. Don't ask why I have them, it's a long story.

Anyway, tell me how your weekends went.

P.S. Last night I got a phone call from the most awesome woman in the entire world: Sinatras_doll. People, you should hear her voice, it is fucking HOT. Straight up girl boner over here. SCHA-WING!