Omg, terrible nightmares last night, and hardly any sleep to account for them. I am in a disturbed mood this morning.
Then I wake up to my credit card accounts being all fucked up, and now I have 2 recockulous payments to make instead of one in the beginning of June. I tried to make a transfer and they only transferred half of my balance, and apparently one of my bills got lost in the mail last month so now I owe a payment on a high interest credit card, and 2 payments on a low interest credit card which almost equals the same amount as the high interest one. Christ almighty, someone kill me now.
I feel like I am going to wig out. Plus I seem to be losing my voice, my cramps are terrible, and Karla wants me to go to some shittastic wedding with her today for some people I don't even know, and thus really do not give a flying fuck about.
Ok update, I am totally fucking freaking out here. I am in so much debt it's unbelievable. I don't know what I am going to do. I just filled out this debt consolidation thing online and hopefully they call me back. Hopefully I get that job next week. Hopefully I get more fucking clients that stop flaking on me. Hopefully Nick decides to get his head out of his ass and want me to come over so he can hug me for a few hours cus that is what I really fucking need right now. I feel sick to my stomach. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. I'm gonna go throw up.
I hate that I have such extreme anxiety. I feel so terrible right now, I want to cry, and hide, and I need a hug, and I'm just....god I don't even know. I can't calm myself down and I had to call in a refill on my Klonopins. Fuck I hate this. It's freaking me out that I still have to wait 20 more minutes before I can go pick them up. I don't know wtf to do...
Then I wake up to my credit card accounts being all fucked up, and now I have 2 recockulous payments to make instead of one in the beginning of June. I tried to make a transfer and they only transferred half of my balance, and apparently one of my bills got lost in the mail last month so now I owe a payment on a high interest credit card, and 2 payments on a low interest credit card which almost equals the same amount as the high interest one. Christ almighty, someone kill me now.
I feel like I am going to wig out. Plus I seem to be losing my voice, my cramps are terrible, and Karla wants me to go to some shittastic wedding with her today for some people I don't even know, and thus really do not give a flying fuck about.
Ok update, I am totally fucking freaking out here. I am in so much debt it's unbelievable. I don't know what I am going to do. I just filled out this debt consolidation thing online and hopefully they call me back. Hopefully I get that job next week. Hopefully I get more fucking clients that stop flaking on me. Hopefully Nick decides to get his head out of his ass and want me to come over so he can hug me for a few hours cus that is what I really fucking need right now. I feel sick to my stomach. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. I'm gonna go throw up.
I hate that I have such extreme anxiety. I feel so terrible right now, I want to cry, and hide, and I need a hug, and I'm just....god I don't even know. I can't calm myself down and I had to call in a refill on my Klonopins. Fuck I hate this. It's freaking me out that I still have to wait 20 more minutes before I can go pick them up. I don't know wtf to do...
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nikonphoto80:
Your night was a lot better than mine if that is what you did. 
nikonphoto80:
Firs off I tried to get a hold of this girl (who I really like but gives me so many mixed signals some times she hugs me and lays her head on my shoulder and some times she seems like she hates me and some times I dont know what to think) but this girl hasnt returned my text messages or phone calls in almost 2 weeks and last night was no exception. Than me and my friend Laura went to eat, the food was pretty good but I didnt need to spend all that money. Then we went to the bar and I got a beer that was almost 3 dollars and than I gave the bar tender 1 dollar and It tasted like it had gone bad so I had to just sit it down. There was this really stupid guy who keep bugging me. But one of my other friends from high school showed up and he bought me 2 beers and Laura some drinks I think he likes Laura and was trying to impress her but she doesnt like him so that sucks. Than we went to this party with a bunch of wired people and some thugs with gold teeth and shit who was giving some of us attitude, my high school friend left disappointed I thank because Laura was talking to all these other guys and finally I left came home alone sober and bored so I got on SG that was the best part of my night. 