violently

Went out for like one hour last night and came home miserable as expected. Except there was a message from dude on my computer.

We talked for about an hour and then I went to see him. We talked and cuddled each other all night and have agreed to take things slow and try to work things out. We're not going to jump back into things where we left off, but let shit be chill- see each other once a week or so, talk on the computer and phone, and just take things day by day. And we are staying monogamous to each other. Neither of us want to go through this again. This is such a change of events I am in shock and about to weep with relief. He kissed me goodbye for real and for so long this morning I thought I must have been dreaming. I am so so so happy and relieved.

God bless Pat- whatever he said to him must have been sense, and god bless everyone else who has been here for me while I've been grieving.

I really am in shock, and thank you so much everyone, you will never know how grateful I am to you and your well wishes.

You will always be in my prayers. Thank you thank you thank you.