violently

Why can I not escape from him in my dreams?

This is hurting too much. Wtf do I do?

At least I get inked today. Maybe that will help. I'll be so close to him though, like 20 minutes from his house I wish he would see me. God help me be strong. I miss him so fucking much, and I want my puppy.

I know Pat is going to ask what happened. I don't know if it will help or hurt my case to tell him and tell him how fucking much I miss Nick. I go to sleep crying and wake up crying. I would do anything for a hug right now.

I need to get away. If anyone has an extra room or a couch they want to let a girl crash on for a week or something, please drop me a line. I'll cook for you and if you feel fat I'll train you. In return all I ask for is a place to stay and hugs and hugs. I'll try not to weep all over you. Thanks.

P.S. I talked to another psychic last night- she said 2 weeks too, and that we will get back together. So am I counting down the days. How pathetic. But today is day 14 (counting backwards is better, don't ask me why but it is.)

Also, today is the Friday the 13th. So I am blaming everything shitty on that today. I suggest you do the same. Something goes wrong, it's the 13th. Someone is mean to you, it's the 13th. A man is retarded, it's the 13th everyday.

Be safe and I'll pray for you guys too. Only fair since I'm asking for you pray for me.

Fleece.