violently

i am drunk.

my psychic told me to call nick today, so i did. he said he might go with me on friday to get my tattoo finished, but his brother wanted him to go rally racing- a valid excuse. my psychic says there is a 70% chance he will go with me.

i miss him so much. i am going to bed now and i would give anything for him to be in it. i want to call him but i cannot until tomorrow when i am sober and when i told him i would to see what was up. he did not sound unhappy to talk to me.

why does love hurt so much?

i had a lovely night with the girls though, for this i am thankful. haha, my new party girl alias is james. i like it so much i would consider changing my name to it for real.

again, thank you so much to those of you that said you would pray for me and light candles. if i can ever return the favor, do not hesistate to ask.

if it's meant to be it will be. i beg of god that is will.

please take care of yourselves people. i would never wish this pain upon anyone.