violently

So I hadn't made out with anyone in like almost 3 months right? Last night I made out with a foreigner who sounded like Tattoo from Fantasy Island. But he was pretty so that makes it ok, right?

In other news, I love Cyrus. We shook our asses like cheap strippers in next to nothing- I was wearing jeans and 2 stickers as a shirt! The horror. It was pretty much amazing. The foreigner wanted to be our babies daddy. We had to run away. In my defense I hadn't made out with anyone in months, you guys. Like someone was going to get made out with. You know? RIGHT?? RIGHT??

Omg I fucking hate myself.

Back to being a neuter, sincerely. I feel cheap and disgusting. And not in my usual good cheap and disgusting way.

Also I feel really fat. I have been eating way too much lately. God I feel like shit in general today. I just want to fucking cry. I really don't want to work today either. Too much to fucking do. I'm supposed to be driving to Ontario right now, but I can't because I'm too tired. Like as much fun as I had last night, this morning isn't as fun because I HAD to be there last night. So today feels like I worked yesterday even though I technically had it off. I need a goddamned vacation. I feel like I'm going mental. Like right now I really have an overwhelming desire to bash my head into the wall. Literally. Like over and over again until my face is just completely broken and I have to be locked up for a month or two. And I keep hoping maybe I will get hit by a bus or something. Right here in my room. It would just plow through my bedroom wall. Although highly unlikely, that would be nice.

I think I might go throw up. I am really sorry for this entry. You should unread it. Right now.