I tried to break up with Nick last night. I can't take it anymore, he treats me so badly and acts so awful towards me. I told him I cry all the time and I'm miserable. All I ever wanted was for us to be happy, for him to be happy, and he just sees me as a hassle. He doesn't love me.
Somehow, we're...
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eazy:
Ur killing me mcfly. Nows the time. Do it, be happy.
conqueringking:
That's pretty much the advice I would have given you. That..... or kicking him in the nuts repeatly until he cried like a little girl. I know you are strong enough to handle this. *Hug* 
And now I am a weepy mess of anxiety and worry.
This is what I get.
At times like these I feel so fucking alone and pathetic.
I am never getting drunk ever again.
P.S. Since I've been so moody latey maybe Nick and I need to do it more: http://www.newscientist.com/article.ns?id=dn2457
This is what I get.
At times like these I feel so fucking alone and pathetic.
I am never getting drunk ever again.
P.S. Since I've been so moody latey maybe Nick and I need to do it more: http://www.newscientist.com/article.ns?id=dn2457
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trebo:
Hey what type of talk is that? First you are not pathetic!! All of us make error judgements...you're human....This is out of your hands for now so quit freakin...Make sure you keep your composure and bat those sexy eyes!...Try not to worry...
As for the article...pretty interesting....So now after 36 years I finally find out how to make a woman happy!!
.... ...just thought I blow some kisses your way... 
As for the article...pretty interesting....So now after 36 years I finally find out how to make a woman happy!!
....
...just thought I blow some kisses your way... 
pirate_romeo:
Do we really need this study to tell us to have more sex? You are not pathetic! And as for being alone, you have us to kick around!
Guess what!?! LIKE OMG I TOTALLY SUCK!!!!
I ate a bunch of percocet and got drunk and I hung out with Garbage tonight and he is even cooler in person than you could possibly imagine.
I got my cards read and it was nothing new, but I am happy, and tomorrow I get to get Thai food still with Adam and he rules.
Jesus tapdancing...
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I ate a bunch of percocet and got drunk and I hung out with Garbage tonight and he is even cooler in person than you could possibly imagine.
I got my cards read and it was nothing new, but I am happy, and tomorrow I get to get Thai food still with Adam and he rules.
Jesus tapdancing...
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morbidangel:
*snicker* Want some company?
aaxxx:
Jumping Jesus on a Pogo stick!!!! Whats MODERATION??? 
Ever feel like things are going to shit and there is nothing you can do about it except wait and see what happens?
It has been hard to not cry myself to sleep the last 2 nights.
Still no contact, it's for my own good.
I am still in severe pain, I don't understand what is wrong with my o's. It's never usually this bad....
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It has been hard to not cry myself to sleep the last 2 nights.
Still no contact, it's for my own good.
I am still in severe pain, I don't understand what is wrong with my o's. It's never usually this bad....
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suzy_kabloozy:
Gosh, you are beautiful! I love your hair. I'll call you tomorrow.
~Suzy
~Suzy
trebo:
Why are you so hard on yourself?? I like your new twist with your hair! Just a reminder I am just an IM away ! Keep your pretty head up and 
!! You are beautiful! 
! Keep your pretty head up and !! You are beautiful! I am in so much fucking pain I can hardly sleep, I can't eat, and I can barely move. I hate my ovaries.
Secret Op for today: NO CONTACT.
To do:
Try to get to kickboxing although I am still wheezing like I have emphysema
Buy satan's little fingers to plug up my lovehole
Watch movies and hang with my sisters and/or Joy
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Secret Op for today: NO CONTACT.
To do:
Try to get to kickboxing although I am still wheezing like I have emphysema
Buy satan's little fingers to plug up my lovehole
Watch movies and hang with my sisters and/or Joy
Go see...
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b1ll:
Just make sure he brushes first...I mean, it was still pretty cool, but the wierd bits of spinach-y stuff kinda grossed me out... 
fishtail2006:
Hello,
Nice to meet you also, I hope your feeling better today!
Baron
Nice to meet you also, I hope your feeling better today!
Baron
does anyone know what happens when you get charged with battery?
i have an arraignment on the 9th. i'm scared. in fact, i am so scared i want to barf. thanks.
p.s. i feel like crap still, no gym, and i am in dire need of a hug and reassurance because i am insecure and female like that, which, mind you, i hate being.
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i have an arraignment on the 9th. i'm scared. in fact, i am so scared i want to barf. thanks.
p.s. i feel like crap still, no gym, and i am in dire need of a hug and reassurance because i am insecure and female like that, which, mind you, i hate being.
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photomares:
was it over a boy?
steve_huge:
fine and record generally... maybe compensation... nothing to bad not a sentence... who you been beating
i'm sure they deserved it... shame the law never reflects that... our justice system is certainly not perfect.
i'm sure it will go well]
you will feel better
you will be happy
you will always need people... just not as much... you'll just get stronger and more content without them... but you will always need people... anyone who tells you they dont are mental, lying... or maybe just dont realise it....
and theres proof if they dont believe it... everyone needs people, check out any sensory deprevation experiments. people need other people. some more than others, some very rarely... but with no human interaction you start to go a little crazy
so dont worry about needing people and the not "needing" people will come with time
hope you are well
x
i'm sure they deserved it... shame the law never reflects that... our justice system is certainly not perfect.
i'm sure it will go well
]
you will feel better
you will be happy
you will always need people... just not as much... you'll just get stronger and more content without them... but you will always need people... anyone who tells you they dont are mental, lying... or maybe just dont realise it....
and theres proof if they dont believe it... everyone needs people, check out any sensory deprevation experiments. people need other people. some more than others, some very rarely... but with no human interaction you start to go a little crazy
so dont worry about needing people and the not "needing" people will come with time
hope you are well
x
A few things I have learned in the past and just remembered:
1. I am whole without anyone. I do not need anyone to complete my life or me.
2. I can have ice cream whenever the fuck I want because I am a good person and if ice cream helps me get through whatever I'm going through, be it cramps, a breakup, or I...
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1. I am whole without anyone. I do not need anyone to complete my life or me.
2. I can have ice cream whenever the fuck I want because I am a good person and if ice cream helps me get through whatever I'm going through, be it cramps, a breakup, or I...
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broadwaybee:
I'm sore and exhausted from moving all day yesterday, and I have a spinning class tonight.
To go, or not to go?
To go, or not to go?
aaxxx:
Check oout the coachella line up sage francis is going to be there among others...
So...this weekend:
Thursday night I went to Nick's house right as his roommate was making a drug deal in the front yard. RETARDED. But Nick ended up not having to go to band practice so we went and got sushi and then watched Se7en, which I accidently fell asleep halfway through. But he let me fall asleep on him and woke me up by petting...
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Thursday night I went to Nick's house right as his roommate was making a drug deal in the front yard. RETARDED. But Nick ended up not having to go to band practice so we went and got sushi and then watched Se7en, which I accidently fell asleep halfway through. But he let me fall asleep on him and woke me up by petting...
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b1ll:
All that drama...packed into the frist 4 paragraphs...I feel all jittery now... 
Oxycontin is SO FUCKING GREAT!!! Like heroin without the messy needles & AIDS...If I lived closer to the Mexican border I would be such a tremendous addict...praise allah that my prescription cannot be refilled anymore, or I'd never leave my house...
Oxycontin is SO FUCKING GREAT!!! Like heroin without the messy needles & AIDS...If I lived closer to the Mexican border I would be such a tremendous addict...praise allah that my prescription cannot be refilled anymore, or I'd never leave my house...
b1ll:
Post kidney stone surgery medication by my excessively friendly doctor...he usually just writes me percocet scripts, but in a fresh-from-anesthesia haze, I demanded better & he relented...
Here are a couple of pics of my special-lady-friend holding the jug of my urine afterwards:
http://www.fogartyart.com/Blood1.jpg
http://www.fogartyart.com/BloodWithChunks1.jpg
enjoy!
Here are a couple of pics of my special-lady-friend holding the jug of my urine afterwards:
http://www.fogartyart.com/Blood1.jpg
http://www.fogartyart.com/BloodWithChunks1.jpg
enjoy!
I think I'm getting some today.
And this weekend I think I'm going to Disneyland.
I am so excited I need to put on new pants.
And this weekend I think I'm going to Disneyland.
I am so excited I need to put on new pants.
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zedasex:
What are you doing this Monday?
zedasex:
I wanted to see if you would like to go to the Roxy. It's a Metal Skool night. If you have ever seen them it's a comedy routine, more than a band they dress up in spandex and play old glam rock covers which is funny because even though they have an hour and a half set they only play about 6 songs the rest is them just talking to the crowd. It's sold out every Monday it's a party for sure. Since I work there as well I can get you and as many friends as you like on the guest list for free so you don't have to pay. Bring who ever you like.
So after being so fucking productive today I can't believe I'm me, I went to lunch with my friend Joy and then went out for some girltime retail therapy. Of course, my retail therapy consisted of new gym clothes (in grey and black of course because I sweat like everyone at a fat camp combined), an iron maiden shirt, and some MAC lipstick and lipglass....
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broadwaybee:
I used to teach kickboxing at my old gym (Lucille Roberts, bitches!), but that was more aerobic stuff rather than technique.
I take boxing with two different instructors:
Chris's class is more cardio-y - drills, that's kind of stuff. Juan is more technique - like sparring and form and posture. Both are great classes, and both beat the crap out of me.
And there are like 230847235 push ups in both classes, too.
*sweaty*
I take boxing with two different instructors:
Chris's class is more cardio-y - drills, that's kind of stuff. Juan is more technique - like sparring and form and posture. Both are great classes, and both beat the crap out of me.
And there are like 230847235 push ups in both classes, too.
*sweaty*
dave2005:
what's up mama?
when are u going to throw down some more pics
when are u going to throw down some more pics
Yes, it is indeed my hormones that are making me insane. One minute I want to cry, the next I want a goddamn ice cream brownie sundae with choco sauce, and the next I want to put my vibrator on one of my pictures of Nick and hump that.
I cannot wait until I can get back to the gym and blow off some steam...
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I cannot wait until I can get back to the gym and blow off some steam...
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bleedbyyourself:
hahaha gay porn.... nice to meet ya!
nice to meet ya!
conqueringking:
I hear I thought my sex drive was starting to go into overdrive. *bows* I am humbled in your presense.
Black eye is fading and is almost non-existant today as it is nicely covered with about 3 layers of foundation and then eyeshadow. God bless the people at MAC.
I'm still somewhat illin, but I'm tired of being cooped up, so today I think I may go see dude, or just try to get the hell out of the house. I actually feel kinda pretty...
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I'm still somewhat illin, but I'm tired of being cooped up, so today I think I may go see dude, or just try to get the hell out of the house. I actually feel kinda pretty...
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suzy_kabloozy:
It's always so nice on days when we feel pretty! You are gorgeous ... go out and feel better. You deserve it, chicky!
Love,
Suzy
Love,
Suzy
gabriel_rain:
I'm still sorry you feel bad. Yet am glad your eye is doing better. You are very beautiful and Deserve to get out and not be in a house all the time. Listen to Deftones, I haven't heard them in a while. They are so good. I would play "Be Quiet and Drive" all the time, even though It reminds me of a bad time in my life its still a good song. Oh and Vodka, just a bit, at least a shot for me I'm out. Take Care