bastard's log - stardate 20050610
i've discovered i have a disgusting amount of free time on my hands. well to say i "discovered" that tidbit of my life would be a lie. i could safely say the flag has long been planted in the muddy earth of my mind.
some would say having an interest and some "talent" in so many forms of art would be a blessing. in some ways yes that is true but i look at it more as a dynamic duo of frustration in the form of boots and clenched fists giving me a bit of the old ultra violence to my crotch region.
here i have not one, not two, but about ten plus different paths in front of me. my own private "choose your own adventure!" book, only problem is if i make the wrong decision and the dreaded hobgoblin of doom bludgeons me with extreme ouchness theres no going back a few pages to try again..or is there?
i'm the youngest of four, and the only one to actually give a shit about anything art related. theres no denying that i love art and i have since as far back as i can remember. on the other hand i have a love/hate relationship with artists or those who bother to label themselves one. usually with any scene/culture, one who goes through the trouble to announce and flaunt in bold neon they are part of whoever and whatever's subculture army are 90% of the time..full of the most foulest of le poop.
my title? for a few years i place myself under the moniker of some jerk. yes i dabble in drawing,painting,design,music,poetry,etc. etc. but i would never consider myself an artist,painter,designer,musician,poet,pretzel bender,or even a military strongman. why? i think to place what i do in the same league as what i would think of as the real deal would be an insult to them.
in the words of that bareknuckle brawling vegetarian sailor "i ams what i ams and thats all that i ams".
but all in all when it comes to others and art the point is to just do whatever it is you enjoy. if someone doesn't care for what you do, ask yourself..who am i really doing this for? yourself? or them?
yeah i could pick a fight and drop a few names of some things and people i think are overrated but are looked on as art house gifts from god but what purpose would that serve? get somebody all silly in the pants with anger? most likely. course one thing most forget to remember is a person's opinion regardless of whether they try to shove it in your face as fact or not is still just an opinion..but that doesn't mean you gotta give somebody a kiss when they call your work shit either
i've discovered i have a disgusting amount of free time on my hands. well to say i "discovered" that tidbit of my life would be a lie. i could safely say the flag has long been planted in the muddy earth of my mind.
some would say having an interest and some "talent" in so many forms of art would be a blessing. in some ways yes that is true but i look at it more as a dynamic duo of frustration in the form of boots and clenched fists giving me a bit of the old ultra violence to my crotch region.
here i have not one, not two, but about ten plus different paths in front of me. my own private "choose your own adventure!" book, only problem is if i make the wrong decision and the dreaded hobgoblin of doom bludgeons me with extreme ouchness theres no going back a few pages to try again..or is there?
i'm the youngest of four, and the only one to actually give a shit about anything art related. theres no denying that i love art and i have since as far back as i can remember. on the other hand i have a love/hate relationship with artists or those who bother to label themselves one. usually with any scene/culture, one who goes through the trouble to announce and flaunt in bold neon they are part of whoever and whatever's subculture army are 90% of the time..full of the most foulest of le poop.
my title? for a few years i place myself under the moniker of some jerk. yes i dabble in drawing,painting,design,music,poetry,etc. etc. but i would never consider myself an artist,painter,designer,musician,poet,pretzel bender,or even a military strongman. why? i think to place what i do in the same league as what i would think of as the real deal would be an insult to them.
in the words of that bareknuckle brawling vegetarian sailor "i ams what i ams and thats all that i ams".
but all in all when it comes to others and art the point is to just do whatever it is you enjoy. if someone doesn't care for what you do, ask yourself..who am i really doing this for? yourself? or them?
yeah i could pick a fight and drop a few names of some things and people i think are overrated but are looked on as art house gifts from god but what purpose would that serve? get somebody all silly in the pants with anger? most likely. course one thing most forget to remember is a person's opinion regardless of whether they try to shove it in your face as fact or not is still just an opinion..but that doesn't mean you gotta give somebody a kiss when they call your work shit either
aeryn:
I think you can always change paths- and that you should do what you love to do- and fuck everyone else.