"shout at the devil.."
at long last friday..
this week has been both extremely slow and a blur for me.
hard to explain so might as well just leave it at that.
it's always interesting when you converse with someone for the first time. you feel this anxious pull and await the moment. some have trouble talking to others, i'd like to think i do decent enough on first impressions but regardless you still have that voice in the back of your mind knudging you and reminding you not to be an ass.
one thing i've observed and been knee deep in since i first entered a chat room back in 97 is that people are a mess. especially us dumb ape men. thanks to (i don't even want to try and guess) a shit load of obsessive, freako, oddball, and just all out assholes trying to just say "hello" to a woman online nowadays creates that tense vibe that temporarily places you in the same category as stalkers and murderers while you do your best to show you are not part of the poison crop.
there lies another challenge..
it's all understandable of course, but let me tell you something and you can choose to accept it or not.
trying to be a decent man in a sea of asshole and freak men is just a constant kick to the bean machine.
in the past i have seen more women tolerate assholes more than they would a nice guy..why is that? i've asked that question to a lot of women and even my own mother admitted she has done so.
common answers i get are..
"i'm afraid to start over"
"i hate being alone"
"i'm used to it now"
i'm sure if you look at the different situations from all possible sides you can understand but theres always conflicting reasons regardless.
not sure where i was going with this, just emptying out some old thoughts.
have a good morning/night..
at long last friday..
this week has been both extremely slow and a blur for me.
hard to explain so might as well just leave it at that.
it's always interesting when you converse with someone for the first time. you feel this anxious pull and await the moment. some have trouble talking to others, i'd like to think i do decent enough on first impressions but regardless you still have that voice in the back of your mind knudging you and reminding you not to be an ass.
one thing i've observed and been knee deep in since i first entered a chat room back in 97 is that people are a mess. especially us dumb ape men. thanks to (i don't even want to try and guess) a shit load of obsessive, freako, oddball, and just all out assholes trying to just say "hello" to a woman online nowadays creates that tense vibe that temporarily places you in the same category as stalkers and murderers while you do your best to show you are not part of the poison crop.
there lies another challenge..
it's all understandable of course, but let me tell you something and you can choose to accept it or not.
trying to be a decent man in a sea of asshole and freak men is just a constant kick to the bean machine.
in the past i have seen more women tolerate assholes more than they would a nice guy..why is that? i've asked that question to a lot of women and even my own mother admitted she has done so.
common answers i get are..
"i'm afraid to start over"
"i hate being alone"
"i'm used to it now"
i'm sure if you look at the different situations from all possible sides you can understand but theres always conflicting reasons regardless.
not sure where i was going with this, just emptying out some old thoughts.
have a good morning/night..