How Im really feeling...... WARNING its a bit depressing
04/19/09
I've been thinking about death again
how all my tears would disappear
nobody would have to listen to me cry
I really just want to say goodbye
I feel a wave of worthless-ness wash over me
everyday i feel this in the pit of my stomach
my family see's it, but they view it
as something else, as laziness
I feel like this ocean is swallowing me up
and im never going to swim out alive
but washed upon shore, dead and lifeless
i dont know what to feel anymore
i always make the wrong decisions in life
my decisions are always questioned
i am always questioned
i hate being me
i do want to end it peacefully
I feel like a lost puppy with no where to go
my inner self hate
04/19/09
I've been thinking about death again
how all my tears would disappear
nobody would have to listen to me cry
I really just want to say goodbye
I feel a wave of worthless-ness wash over me
everyday i feel this in the pit of my stomach
my family see's it, but they view it
as something else, as laziness
I feel like this ocean is swallowing me up
and im never going to swim out alive
but washed upon shore, dead and lifeless
i dont know what to feel anymore
i always make the wrong decisions in life
my decisions are always questioned
i am always questioned
i hate being me
i do want to end it peacefully
I feel like a lost puppy with no where to go
my inner self hate
I hope everyone is having a better few weeks than I am.
Vintige
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king_:
feel better my lovely i heart you!
sofreshsoclean:
god, that's heartbreaking. i hope you have someone close who can tell you it's all gonna be ok, because there's nothing that should ever get that bad for you. you've got a good group of folks here who can help you out and support you, don't be afraid to ever ask.