vide0dr0me

Don't ever meet their friends
It tells you too much
Or not enough
Or worse
Exactly the wrong thing
Every nuance
Every detail
Every movement
Every smell
Sound
Phrase
Inflection
The way she laughs
These are all the things that you obsessively fetishize
Or make yourself grow to love
Although you are supposed to be done growing
She is still growing
Its like a garden with two flowers
One just blooming and casting a shadow
Just like yours
And then it becomes a struggle
Of sunlight
Or rain
Or weeds

She and every she
Is doomed to be your idea of her



So for the past 3 weeks I've been working 55-70 hours a week. It is brutal and has turned me into a working class zombie. It will end soon I hope for I am wasting away this summer under corporate light fixtures. Oh well, I prefer the fall anyways.

I am sorry to cut this so short but I am just exhausted and depressed at the moment so I am at a loss of words, perhaps a video blog next will do better.


But I haven't forgotten about you!