Saturday Jan 15, 2011

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I apologize for being absent here. Someone whom I was attracted too, I asked out and she ripped my feelings out. She wrote me a long letter explaining why, it was so difficult to read I havent even finished it, every word is like a stab to the heart. I'm shattered from this she basically she I wasn't good enough for her.

Now I'm not perfect, far from it but I am sincere, honest, caring, funny, comforting and loyal. If those characteristics don't count for something then what do you except?

After this I went into a spiral of self destruction, I don't want to go into details but it was bad, bad as in I had to go somewhere for 3 days.

All my friends have given me there 2 cents on why the realm of dating I'm a black sheep. None of it was really logical or useful. Alot of my lady friends said I shouldn't try and it will just happen, well maybe for a woman.

Once I get my focus back I'll back on here more often,


Im going back to lay down, my body is in alotta pain. frown
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joliette:
Yikes. frown This sounds terrible. I hope you feel better ASAP. Doesn't sound like you deserved any of this. blackeyed Wishing you the speediest of recoveries.
briscoe:
well i think you're lovely (and i'm sure many ladies would agree)! i know it probably doesn't feel like it right now, but it's her loss.

now, on to more important matters: are you okay? i'm thinking of you and sending my happiest, healthiest vibes your way. i've felt similarly before, i've had a 'i had to go somewhere for 3 days' moment. please believe that it gets better. when i'm in pain, i always think that old saying that you're never given more than you can handle is bullshit. but after many, many low times, i've come to realize that it is true. try to keep your chin up. you'll get through this.

be safe, take care, feel better!!

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