so the girl getting sick equals no date. still going after her and all but spirits are kinda low.
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I'm sorry to hear that. Really sux. Don't let it get you down too much though. Did you set the date for another time?
I've been messing around with this guy I met at work, and I've started to like him... but he tells me that I'm only a fuck buddy to him. Fucking breaks my heart. I'm always the fuck buddy, it's never anything more. I'm really really down about this. Mostly because I'm always so stupid to get into physical relationship with guys, and I end up fucking myself over. I always pull this shit and end up regretting it later. He asked me if I liked him (I think he could tell) and I told him no (I had to lie) and I'm trying to play it off like I don't care. This is what I've learned to do best - shut down, turn off my feelings, pretend like my heart hasn't died.
Love really does suck, doesn't it?