Sunday Apr 20, 2008

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Well happy 4:20 kids!!!!!!!



That doesn't mean much to me and I kind of feel bad for saying it. I'm not at the VAG right now blazing with my friends. I'm not stoned right now. I have no desire for weed at all right now.
I feel like a failure.

I live in fucking B.C. I love our weed, it's fuckin great.
But I don't feel like I need to run out to the Art Gallery right now.
I don't feel like I need to call someone and get some weed.

I seriously really need to call someone and pickup. But not that.

After all these chemicals, how can you still get excited about smoking a joint?
I mean, I'll do it. I did just a few days ago. But I don't really care.
And I don't understand how my other chemical-tainted friends can still freak out about it.


I am a fucking failure.

Shit, what's wrong with me?


I'm sorry.
Hope you're chonged out of your mind, having a great time with all your friends.

I'm going to go all Elizabeth Wurtzel and lay around all afternoon, then start making desperate phone calls.
Yeah, that's a great way to spend 4:20





Sometimes, I am really disappointed in myself.

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bhavok:
* hugs * I hope things get better darling.. Life can't keep you down forever!!
justlostone:
Every night before I got to bed I have this moment of panic. its because the day is ending and I'm still unsatisfied. I usually get high with whatever is available and fall asleep or not sleep at all.

Right when you think you are on track you end up on your back staring at the ceiling (high) with these chemicals lying to you.

I don't have any advice.

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