vickyknockers

Losing a pet is like losing a person, I'd have to say I might feel even worse. How much I loved her I didn't even realize until this moment, and like a loved one you regret all the things you didn't do, or the times that you yelled, or the times that you just could have done more. It eats at you like a termite, it's cutting through my skin. I didn't think it would feel like this, I didn't know a piece of me would fall away. I can't explain this misery, I feel like a cloud; floating around lifeless.

It hurts me to see her this way, her pain is much more deep. The dog is the symbol of everything she never had, losing her has made her feel weak. I try to help but I know that I can't, and listening to her agony all through the night, it breaks me further. I wish I could save her, I wish I could make it easier. I wish I could just do something, just once, and I speak for everything.

I wish that we could start over, and live the life we want to live. I wish there didn't have to heartache, I wish it didn't have to make us weak. Most of all I just wish it was over, I just want to go to sleep.