relationships are so fucking hard. Just when you think you have it all worked out, decided, finalized a curve ball comes flying your way and knocks your plans into the left field side bleachers. Just when you've talked yourself into believing that love may not be enough. That passion was missing, that in love and love are different and necessary together but were missing, that maybe sex is more important than I'd earlier considered, that most of the problems of 5 years came tumbling down..... was all decided. Now Im feeling like maybe passion wasnt missing but I was just really tired. That in love is something you dont always realize you are in, that the sex wasnt bad just needed to be a higher priority (but who can blame us, between the two of us we worked probably 110 hours a week plus I had school and lots of homework, there simply wasnt much time left over for sex) and that the problems of the past should stay in the past. Where does that leave me now? Single, but loving him, single yet missing him, single yet not ready to change it, and only sure of one thing. We can't get back together unless we're going to get married. But how does one decide that you're going to get married?