Sunday Feb 06, 2011

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I'm alive!


Surgery went well, no complications and I was back on my feet the next day and able to eat properly 2 days after. The only thing is I got a call from my doctor Friday afternoon saying all tests and biopsies came back normal. I'm disappointed because this means I'm back at square one. Obviously something isn't right and I just want to KNOW.

The week before my surgery was an emotional one for me; Lauren's parents were in town. I got to know her mother very well as I literally saw her everyday she was here. The arraignment did not go good (I'm not at liberty to discuss) and the man has a sentencing date on the 25. I just want him to spend some form of time in jail; he KILLED a person. Since when is that ever ok in today's society? It seems that, since he has no previous record, he honestly may not go away. I think we will all be devastated if that occurs.

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The day before they left, Lauren's mother called me. It was last Saturday, the day after my surgery, and she was in a state of panic almost: the movers were there cleaning out the apartment. I could hear the sound of packing tape in the background and she asked me to come over to deal with the food because she couldn't handle just throwing it all away. See Lauren's apartment empty like that, with NOTHING in it, tore me up because it shouldn't be like this, she should be here. I went to use the restroom before we dropped off the keys to the landlady because I had to pull myself together and not fall apart in front of Mrs. F. I said my goodbye to Lauren in that bathroom, told her I loved her with all my heart and then went back out to exchange more stories. I dropped off her mom at her hotel and on my way home really, really cried. I mean sobbed. I miss Lauren and I feel like such a fucking shitty friend for being MIA the last few months of our friendship. I can't get that lost time back but I do know she's got my back. I cannot ever thank her enough for that.



Still apartment hunting, sort of. I've found like 3 potentials, just waiting to get approved so I can decide which direction I want to go. I either want to be in downtown or its near vicinity OR NoHo, Studio City, Sherman Oaks, etc. area. It just sucks because I truly cant afford alot but I will make this happen! If any of my LA area friends are in the market for a roomie, email me. Not kidding here guys, I have plans to move within 2 weeks and I honestly don't even know where I'm moving to because my job doesn't know what store I will be transferring to. So at this rate, I'm just going to move to where I want to be.

Photoshoot on 1/30/2011 with Lou Noble. Pre SAG Awards:

















Photoshoot on 02/03/2011 with JC Argetsinger. More to follow:







A teaser shot from the upcoming set I did with Milloux that will hopefully be submitted in a week or so:



It's Super Bowl Sunday!! Who are you guys rooting for?! I work overnight but I still get to catch the game smile Hope to start seeing more of my LA friends (especially Milloux and Ackley) once I am all moved!!

Much Love and a million thanks for all the surgery well wishes,

V

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nvseabee:
it looks like you busted out the beatles monoploy set you got for xmas/new year's in the teaser pic......i hope it gets well used.
ackley:
Yay! I can't wait to see you! Call me if you ever need to talk or cry or vent. I'm here for you: )

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