- - 'I refuse to believe love is for the weak, hey I'm not vulnerable' - -
Music is one of the biggest inspirations in my life, it always has been though recently I've strayed from some of my old playlists. I'm ashamed to admit it. These songs have done far more for me than I have for them, especially going and forgetting this one like I did. It's one of my favorites, one that I listened too when I was going through a lot. If there would ever be a soundtrack to my life this song right here would be it and I guess I thought I'd share to all you out there who might want to listen.
- - 'She checks her pulse, gotta know if her hearts still beating' - -
I've had a heart problem since I was seven - diagnosed with sinus tachycardia barely six months after that. And soon after its onset and for every single day and every single second of all of those days until just a year ago - I could feel every beat of my heart in my chest. I had a quick trigger, my heart racing at the drop of a hat for no particular reason. Especially if one was given. I couldn't play on the playground like the other kids, I couldn't keep up and it led to me being more of a loner than my exuberant personality wanted. But I got used to it, I think we all adapt eventually.
- - 'And the hospital's not far, should anything happen here' - -
I used to live my life to this beat and even though I'm far, far more healthy than I ever was before I still kinda do. All the hospitals nearby and emergency rooms needed to be mapped out if I lived somewhere or decided to travel. My whole life more often than not has been by my rampant health problems and I guess I still run through the shadows of that fear. But if that teaches us anything, its really to let go of it. Doesn't it? Shadows are ghosts and ghosts can't hurt you unless you let them. I think that particularly applies to our past and so I'm taking a page from a book I think we all should and just letting it all go. You can't live if you don't let yourself either.
I could go on and on about this song but really its best sometimes to just listen. Keep your heart open guys. Don't be so quick to close it off, don't waste your time searching - sometimes you gotta look at whats right in front of you too and take in all that surrounds you before you go looking for what may already be right there. I think I'm done rambling for tonight... >.> XD
Music is one of the biggest inspirations in my life, it always has been though recently I've strayed from some of my old playlists. I'm ashamed to admit it. These songs have done far more for me than I have for them, especially going and forgetting this one like I did. It's one of my favorites, one that I listened too when I was going through a lot. If there would ever be a soundtrack to my life this song right here would be it and I guess I thought I'd share to all you out there who might want to listen.
- - 'She checks her pulse, gotta know if her hearts still beating' - -
I've had a heart problem since I was seven - diagnosed with sinus tachycardia barely six months after that. And soon after its onset and for every single day and every single second of all of those days until just a year ago - I could feel every beat of my heart in my chest. I had a quick trigger, my heart racing at the drop of a hat for no particular reason. Especially if one was given. I couldn't play on the playground like the other kids, I couldn't keep up and it led to me being more of a loner than my exuberant personality wanted. But I got used to it, I think we all adapt eventually.
- - 'And the hospital's not far, should anything happen here' - -
I used to live my life to this beat and even though I'm far, far more healthy than I ever was before I still kinda do. All the hospitals nearby and emergency rooms needed to be mapped out if I lived somewhere or decided to travel. My whole life more often than not has been by my rampant health problems and I guess I still run through the shadows of that fear. But if that teaches us anything, its really to let go of it. Doesn't it? Shadows are ghosts and ghosts can't hurt you unless you let them. I think that particularly applies to our past and so I'm taking a page from a book I think we all should and just letting it all go. You can't live if you don't let yourself either.
I could go on and on about this song but really its best sometimes to just listen. Keep your heart open guys. Don't be so quick to close it off, don't waste your time searching - sometimes you gotta look at whats right in front of you too and take in all that surrounds you before you go looking for what may already be right there. I think I'm done rambling for tonight... >.> XD