i am attached to the ring.
i know that now.
in the dream
she wanted it
and i let her wear it.
it was too loose for her finger
it slipped around.
seeing it there
pissed me off.
who is this stranger?
and why does she matter more than me?
(i didn't want her to have it. no, not really)
time left.
time went.
and...
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i know that now.
in the dream
she wanted it
and i let her wear it.
it was too loose for her finger
it slipped around.
seeing it there
pissed me off.
who is this stranger?
and why does she matter more than me?
(i didn't want her to have it. no, not really)
time left.
time went.
and...
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y:
This is one of my favourites. I've still got it on tape from when I recorded it off tv in 94 (circa):
drpirate:
As they say if you love something set it free and if it's ment to be it'll come back... 
As they say if you love something set it free and if it's ment to be it'll come back... he said
but
here she is
turning away from me.
i can't even see her face!
and she said
but i turned to myself
and there
i could see you more clearly.
(have you heard this
before? is it true?)
drpirate:
I never heard it before but it sounds true to me!
I never heard it before but it sounds true to me!
y:
I saw the rest 
Not that that gives me any insight into what on earth you're talking about
Not that that gives me any insight into what on earth you're talking about
sometimes i wish
i had more
and
that pit
grows.
it has the mind
of a small child.
it wants me
to hold it
and show it
around.
add its burden,
that scream
(it never asks nicely,
never plays by the rules.)
taking me
(do i let it?)
sometimes
i want to try
and give it
everything
i can
and that
is always
too much.
i had more
and
that pit
grows.
it has the mind
of a small child.
it wants me
to hold it
and show it
around.
add its burden,
that scream
(it never asks nicely,
never plays by the rules.)
taking me
(do i let it?)
sometimes
i want to try
and give it
everything
i can
and that
is always
too much.
i keep her
in the small room.
door shut
blinds closed (only now she is opening them)
windows
locked
tight.
i bring her food
to keep her there.
toys
candy.
but
it seems
she is growing bored.
i no longer know
what she needs.
i have no way
of knowing.
what is it she could need?
i bring her toys,
candy,
a steady
paycheck.
will...
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in the small room.
door shut
blinds closed (only now she is opening them)
windows
locked
tight.
i bring her food
to keep her there.
toys
candy.
but
it seems
she is growing bored.
i no longer know
what she needs.
i have no way
of knowing.
what is it she could need?
i bring her toys,
candy,
a steady
paycheck.
will...
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catdad:
So you were in Portland then? Living or visiting? That was when J and I had started dating. Would have been our sixth date. She stood me up, so I went by myself.
y:
Toys and candy.
Desire cannot be sated. Better to discipline it.
Happy daytime to you
Desire cannot be sated. Better to discipline it.
Happy daytime to you
my lady,
i have poisoned you.
it has not been
concious,
not all of
the violence
i do.
but you know
me.
you know this.
i try to get through it
denying how
you have taken
my hand
given me shelter.
i writhe and i wiggle
as if
i don't have a choice
in my suffering.
but i remember
in chosen moments
to remember
all...
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i have poisoned you.
it has not been
concious,
not all of
the violence
i do.
but you know
me.
you know this.
i try to get through it
denying how
you have taken
my hand
given me shelter.
i writhe and i wiggle
as if
i don't have a choice
in my suffering.
but i remember
in chosen moments
to remember
all...
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fred:
I like your poems.
Hey, I sent a reply.
I like your poems.
Hey, I sent a reply.
after the coffee hits
and the engine moves its gears quicker,
i pour over
what i have written you.
inspecting it, feeling it
until i send it away,
until i close that window.
i am in the present moment
again.
empty with no food.
bright eyed,
bushy tailed.
and the engine moves its gears quicker,
i pour over
what i have written you.
inspecting it, feeling it
until i send it away,
until i close that window.
i am in the present moment
again.
empty with no food.
bright eyed,
bushy tailed.
vervain______:
they haven't been anywhere,
but i haven't either.
talked to that angel
and then
another one.
(seems they can get to me
now.)
what have i given
or taken
to have this?
what gold
what silver
how much
did i forget myself
on account
of your
emptiness?
(and what did that do
what ripple did that cause?)
i will ask
as if i don't know.
(it is vulnerablility
or foolishness
to keep that
speed
and exit
for the past.)
but i haven't either.
talked to that angel
and then
another one.
(seems they can get to me
now.)
what have i given
or taken
to have this?
what gold
what silver
how much
did i forget myself
on account
of your
emptiness?
(and what did that do
what ripple did that cause?)
i will ask
as if i don't know.
(it is vulnerablility
or foolishness
to keep that
speed
and exit
for the past.)
5 hours away and
5 hours seperated
what life is this?
this cat in me
finding the sun
to sleep in
to strech wide in,
belly exposed.
5 hours seperated
what life is this?
this cat in me
finding the sun
to sleep in
to strech wide in,
belly exposed.
billyfivecrows:
The brief
Appearance of
A cloud only
Causes
A
Sigh. Sleep
Kitten, do not
Cry.
Appearance of
A cloud only
Causes
A
Sigh. Sleep
Kitten, do not
Cry.
catdad:
They only smell when they're dead. And they're bodies (not including the legs) are smaller around than a quarter. Little crabs.
you know what your problem is?
you like the fight.
find humor in it.
get caught up
while he
perfects his skill,
his aim with the letters.
the other
stares at a fish
fascinated
ungrounded
beautiful.
the two balance on a stick
that an angel holds.
one is about to fall
a great distance.
look to your past
and the trees there,
the flowers,
the...
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you like the fight.
find humor in it.
get caught up
while he
perfects his skill,
his aim with the letters.
the other
stares at a fish
fascinated
ungrounded
beautiful.
the two balance on a stick
that an angel holds.
one is about to fall
a great distance.
look to your past
and the trees there,
the flowers,
the...
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catdad:
I like that one.
huck:
i like this a lot. nice to see you writing what appears to be "fiction" - although i do love your personal pieces. this one flashes images into my mind; i feel like i'm watching a projection.
i like Billy's Hours comparison, too, though i must admit i had mixed reactions to the film. i should probably read the novel...
i like Billy's Hours comparison, too, though i must admit i had mixed reactions to the film. i should probably read the novel...
this sugar i took
is his sugar
now
that bitterness
hanging in the
humidity
trying
trying
trying
so hard
i tried
so hard
for you
while
you talked
about yourself
and
your life
i disappeared
to wonder
why.
(some girls are so dumb)
is his sugar
now
that bitterness
hanging in the
humidity
trying
trying
trying
so hard
i tried
so hard
for you
while
you talked
about yourself
and
your life
i disappeared
to wonder
why.
(some girls are so dumb)
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y:
That is a nose-ring! I didn't have to pay for the piercing, either, cause the women that worked at the place fancied me Did you notice my black nail polish in the praying photo? Ahh, teenagers.
Tell me more about this Grandfather.
(Viva said what I was really thinking when I said "Nice picture" ).
Did you notice my black nail polish in the praying photo? Ahh, teenagers.
Tell me more about this Grandfather.
(Viva said what I was really thinking when I said "Nice picture"
).
catdad:
Cute pic.
sometimes, i go back.