sticky here in rhody. a decision must be made about moving somewhere else or not. i am all for change (and an apartment with more rooms) even if it is only temporary. it will be more money but i want to get a little job and change the routine up a bit. the nieghbors upstairs are relentless. i hear bumping and objects falling on the...
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this night
fine
in
under
my head. he isn't available. niether is the other one. he left without a sound and then i was alone. i seethed in the quiet. i wanted to bash pans around and make a clamor. i did no such thing, as i finally got the child to sleep. i don't sing lullibies anymore. after he left, i began talking to...
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fine
in
under
my head. he isn't available. niether is the other one. he left without a sound and then i was alone. i seethed in the quiet. i wanted to bash pans around and make a clamor. i did no such thing, as i finally got the child to sleep. i don't sing lullibies anymore. after he left, i began talking to...
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saturday has already started positive. we both ate cereal this morning. he almost never eats anything so this is a wonderful thing. we also got a little bit more sleep than usual. the small things are very important.
y:
Excellent.
the sacred marriage
inside myself
i grew some balls
i grew a chest.
and
she didn't
like me
anymore.
she said
i scared her
because
i wanted her
(but i did.)
he didn't want me
either.
what is the use
if i
am no longer needed?
he asked.
but
want
is a precious
thing.
want is
all there
is.
inside myself
i grew some balls
i grew a chest.
and
she didn't
like me
anymore.
she said
i scared her
because
i wanted her
(but i did.)
he didn't want me
either.
what is the use
if i
am no longer needed?
he asked.
but
want
is a precious
thing.
want is
all there
is.
billyfivecrows:
Androgyne is
Sacred, but
It's irony is
That it often
Engenders
Null and
Void...
(I love graham crackers. They have an interesting origin, I believe.)
Sacred, but
It's irony is
That it often
Engenders
Null and
Void...
(I love graham crackers. They have an interesting origin, I believe.)
this is what you can do for me. get me some water. i won't drink tap. doesn't taste right. get me some juice. if there isn't a carton of o.j. i can swig from throughout the day, there is something missing. make the days go quicker. someone light a firecracker under my ass. get me some coffee. i don't like routine. make me like it...
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y:
I find myself oddly compelled to do all that stuff for you 
They don't call me Lackey for nothing 
They don't call me Lackey for nothing 
cathshee:
move to colorado, convince sister to ditch freaky longhaired controling boy. . . .free yourself from ALL the PAST, and start over as the amazing single mom from outerspace.....(or learn to love the man, FGS).....move closer to your other lackey (ME). For free child care and back rubs(you forgot about them did'nt chya). . . .people say I give better backrubs then this girl who is a licensed back rub giver. . . . .it's all about the love baby. . . .and bite a bullett. . . 
been gone. to the cape. had fun. got closer to hub's family...of great worth to me. consumed too much sugar. back now. hope all are well. happy summer (i would prefer fall over any other season, myself) oh well, trying not to grit my teeth too hard. we may be moving again. upstairs people are like gorillas or elephants or some other wild beings. it...
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viva:
well im up for the affair just get out to vegas. 
billyfivecrows:
You're married?!?! My dreams are shattered! 
(Yes. Maybe it's best to move away from the upstairs wildlife. You know, I was that wildlife, once. Lived above this man and his wife, me and a rotating assortment of other loud, hyperactive, loud-music-playin', drunk and high, combat-booted, nocturnal punkers. My neighbor was not pleased 'cause he worked days and got up really early. We did not. Lot's of beating fists on my door, and much screaming, let me tell ya! I think I was 19 at the time, 20.
I know better now, to say the least!)
And yes... sadness is feeling. But so is bliss.
Thank you for the sweetness!
-b.
(Yes. Maybe it's best to move away from the upstairs wildlife. You know, I was that wildlife, once. Lived above this man and his wife, me and a rotating assortment of other loud, hyperactive, loud-music-playin', drunk and high, combat-booted, nocturnal punkers. My neighbor was not pleased 'cause he worked days and got up really early. We did not. Lot's of beating fists on my door, and much screaming, let me tell ya! I think I was 19 at the time, 20.
I know better now, to say the least!)
And yes... sadness is feeling. But so is bliss.
Thank you for the sweetness!
-b.
change.
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y:
I can't spare any, sorry.
3thrice3:
?????
those things
i cry
for
i cry to
over and
over.
on the sidewalk
that could trip
the feeble
or blind,
i steam upward
sweating
and ugly,
alone
and lonely,
pushing
the stroller
over
slabs
of
uprooted concrete.
just you
and
me,
kid.
your mother
is
a fucking
recluse.
she calls me
and talks about
a
turtle
and i
really
don't care
about it,
steaming...
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i cry
for
i cry to
over and
over.
on the sidewalk
that could trip
the feeble
or blind,
i steam upward
sweating
and ugly,
alone
and lonely,
pushing
the stroller
over
slabs
of
uprooted concrete.
just you
and
me,
kid.
your mother
is
a fucking
recluse.
she calls me
and talks about
a
turtle
and i
really
don't care
about it,
steaming...
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3thrice3:
Cheer up! Nick loves ya!!
<-- Thats me being a goofy lil monkey
<-- Thats me being a goofy lil monkey
catdad:
Great poem. I just went through some of your previous entries. Very good writing. I like your profile pic, too.
the luxury of having one's hair cut. this proves my inability to take care of myself, at the moment. small pleasures are a life saver. sometimes even the breathing seems hard. me and my family are going to the cape this weekend. thank god there are no fucking computers there. sometimes i want to throw this one out the window. what a waste of time...
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y:
Wow. Good luck with all that Sounds chaotic.
Sounds chaotic.haircut today. yahoo!!!
i don't talk to my neighbours at all; it's quite funny actually because there seems to be a tacit agreement that we have nothing in common and will not aim to overcome that.