vervain______

what do you do when you're not being heard (herd)?

the water that sat in the glass all night
is stale by morning.
i still pick it up
hold it to my mouth
sip sip sip.

this morning my head
met that wall(s)
and yes
it hurt.
need you ask?
need i?

i am losing my words.
used them all in some
attempt already.

he got dressed
and left.
got more diapers.
which is fine.
it was his choice.

i haven't paced
the floor in a while.
i sit here after getting
myself up
i drink coffee.
find things to do.