vervain______

you know what your problem is?
you like the fight.
find humor in it.
get caught up
while he
perfects his skill,
his aim with the letters.
the other
stares at a fish
fascinated
ungrounded
beautiful.
the two balance on a stick
that an angel holds.
one is about to fall
a great distance.
look to your past
and the trees there,
the flowers,
the family dog.
you even
had
a fence once.
she wedded you 4 years ago.
you found her in the phonebook.
when she met you
she smiled as if
she knew better.
don't get too comfortable,
anyway.
there is more to come
but you have a better place to stand
for that battle.


silent.
the walls are breathing.
her cats wrap around your legs.
you feel as if you are suffocating.
open a door
or a window.
she knows you're here.


she said
that idea you have
shows golden and
you are right
the grass is greener
there,
the sun less bright.
still, you could lose it
finally
lose the life
you have wanted to lose.
crash the car by accident,
drown when the waves get too big.

rest here,
she says.
i won't tell anyone
where you are.
the kid will be fine
i will look after him
and
when you emerge
he will only kiss you
having thought
he had lost you.

breathe deeper.
it is safe.