vervain______

trainwreck and the indifference

what about your home?
i am a nomad. i don't have a home, even inside myself, i am the worst kind of drifter.

but you are married, you have a son...yes?
they didn't tell me. one i love, the other i just tolerate. it is an awful situation. muddy.


do you realize how awful you sound? what about the poor bastard your married to, what does he think?
i don't know. ask him. here is his phone number. (rips off a piece of paper. scratches the number down) we don't communicate.

what about your child?
exactly. that is the question. he is the point where everything hangs motionless.

what does that mean?
that every day is a routine. you do it. you say hi in the morning and that you love the person, and you do, but you don't live it.

wouldn't honesty be a better solution? getting feelings out? creating real change?
yes, that seems right.

well, are you going to do something about it?
maybe, but it's not important.

why?
because i am tired, okay? i'm exhausted. now quit bugging me, i have an email to write.....