vervain______

i don't
want
to
burn
this
out
shove this
down.
moments
like these
take talent,
restraint.
but not
too much.
how would i
know
what the
formula is?
what have i
done
that gives me
the right?
i have ideas.
i spell horribly.
i answer
to the sound
of crying
day in
and day
out.
i try to
silence it,
make it
better.
but this
is
only
my brain
thinking.
my heart
might
know
better.