vervain______

i get it. she said. your lonley. you act tough, but your breaking. where do we go from here, all i have is an idea of happiness. the right colors, a catchy design. i draw upon my past for kindness. the nights are black and pressing. there is no where to sleep. my mother was killed. there is no place to hide. the leaves have matted under my wieght. the rain has rained drumming up the smell. reminding me. i wish i wish i wish and i wish more. the night is the perfect time to consider all i want. it is quiet enough. my dream is small, nothing outlandish. it is simple. a small request. breath is easy to breathe. life is easy to live.