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last mother's day, i bought myself mother's day jewelry because i knew that was the only way i would get some and it was important to me, since it was the first mother's day i, myself, was a mother. so i have a little gold charm that says "mom" on it and i also bought myself small diamond earrings. this year is different. being a mother is finally integrated into my life and very natural. i love how i have grown after having my son. my connection to my own mother, already close, has become even more so since the little guy was born. mothers definately understand mothers. my sister and i are close but i would say we are less so since my son's birth. there is less to talk about now, our worlds are so different. she has decided not to have any children. i do miss my sleep. i look back fondly on all the time i had for myself before my son. i think of afternoon naps and sleeping in. still, i am happy with who i am, and the deep love i have for my child is incredible.