when the only thing i am looking foward to, is finding out who gets kicked off american idol, i know i'm in trouble. and so i am. that show seems to be the only bright spot in my day. hubby is home from work today and it has felt like salt in the wound or a pen to the eyeball. my rage seems to have a life of its own, here i am opening the door to let it out, and like a horse fleeing a burning barn, it runs with all the muscle and wild fear. some part of me believes it is justified to be this angry with another person. i have my reasons - some awful things went down, but they were in the past and so it is time to live in the moment and get on with it, if you will. only, it is hard. very, very, hard.
and so it is.
and so it is.