vervain______

your hair is dirty
again
your beard
is growing longer
i tell you
you need a shower
and your suprised
that i know
you do.
i want to cry
about many things
i have wanted to cry
since
we spoke
having that short time
to say something
to each other
while he slept.
i am sorry.
i am sorry
for things
i don't even know
why i'm sorry for.
it was not all
nothing
and even
if
we should have gone
before
this
it will never
just
end.