how is it?
like black coated steel.
unhuggable
pressing down,
a dead wieght.
when will it end?
soon, i hope.
(look how i leave it up to fate or time)
how is it?
it is me.
(i use no sugar
or colors
or personality
to justify my experience.)
tonglen.
breathe it in.
everything ugly.
the worst.
but
what is dispised is shoved somewhere
else
seperated...
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like black coated steel.
unhuggable
pressing down,
a dead wieght.
when will it end?
soon, i hope.
(look how i leave it up to fate or time)
how is it?
it is me.
(i use no sugar
or colors
or personality
to justify my experience.)
tonglen.
breathe it in.
everything ugly.
the worst.
but
what is dispised is shoved somewhere
else
seperated...
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your sickness
and my own
hoplessness
are
interchangable.
5 days of
vomiting
diareah
the battle for equalibrium rages on.
(that is all i have ever known)
an ongoing war/
a wounded life.
to the hospital
we go
getting fluids to stay in you
through the vein
but
nothing is foolproof
there is no
easy solution
and
the line slips out
and
there is blood
on...
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and my own
hoplessness
are
interchangable.
5 days of
vomiting
diareah
the battle for equalibrium rages on.
(that is all i have ever known)
an ongoing war/
a wounded life.
to the hospital
we go
getting fluids to stay in you
through the vein
but
nothing is foolproof
there is no
easy solution
and
the line slips out
and
there is blood
on...
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sketchy_mf:
Your writing is sublime....please do something with it. At least start a thread to share with others, or join an SG poetry group. 
these are
the terrifying words
the terrifying poems.
all i need is a pillow
to
shove under his arm
and he will think
i'm still there.
(and i do)
all i need is a cause
to move myself to,
to move myself away from
send me
down
the blue staircase
to breathe outside air.
a key
and wheels
and i'm gone
feeling brave
to feel...
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the terrifying words
the terrifying poems.
all i need is a pillow
to
shove under his arm
and he will think
i'm still there.
(and i do)
all i need is a cause
to move myself to,
to move myself away from
send me
down
the blue staircase
to breathe outside air.
a key
and wheels
and i'm gone
feeling brave
to feel...
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mtlqueen:
I see you... er... read you...
ps-
ps-
need to write something new but don't have much energy to.....that ought to do it. done!
sketchy_mf:
You need to showcase your new hairdo! New profile pic!!!
moved into the new pad. it is great.
baby is sick. i had to work up to using the snot sucker on him. it gets easier if perspective is kept....it will make him feel better. there are moments when i realize just how much balls (and boobs if your nursing - trust me on this one) it takes to be a mother / parent. oh...
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baby is sick. i had to work up to using the snot sucker on him. it gets easier if perspective is kept....it will make him feel better. there are moments when i realize just how much balls (and boobs if your nursing - trust me on this one) it takes to be a mother / parent. oh...
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dekews:
We did get a lot of snow. But, um, hello, this IS New England.
sketchy_mf:
Now let me nag you! Get writing!
what could you do? what wall could you fill? and with what? i don't know. i don't know.
sketchy_mf:
You were under a lot of "pressure" last night.... I'm sure these answers will flow from you loose and fast, now!
i am waiting on a tiny person to tell me what to do, where to go and for how long. what a shitty trip it is sometimes, and, yeah, yeah, it is heartmelting in other moments. i am having alot of fun buying things for the new apartment. so far, it is really cool. the sofa is being delivered on monday. we are moving the...
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sketchy_mf:
I want to journey to a foriegn land this spring...wanna come? What's your picks?
friedhamster:
Yeah, that chart or whatever was pretty accurate actually.
that crow is back again - that tocan without the colors, its huge mouth no longer craving my hair. before, it was simple really. a beak opening and closing over fibers, perhaps tugging them, causing me the pain that comes with hair pulling. now things are more complicated. once something begins talking, the world changes.
you are death.
another warning, another day.
you are death....
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you are death.
another warning, another day.
you are death....
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sketchy_mf:
I like crows much better than toucans, and it's smart to be aquainted with death....that way he won't treat you like a stranger, when you meet face to face!
it was'nt a creeping, but a leaving. i turned on the fan to get the stale air moving a little. took my body away from the son. got up to put some hydration back into this capsul. once there, i turned back to the door, closed, and the room with the two neatly tucked inside. nice. now the night has greeted me with silence, an...
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vervain______:
first dacade dedicated to her dedication.
second so that i might remain attatched to the earth - pitifully shrivelled like an unwatered plant.
third for the patiance that comes from only somebody locked into an unfair but inescapable hell.
fourth the enlightenment from that hell.
fifth, getting on, getting on.
harming none,
harming none.
second so that i might remain attatched to the earth - pitifully shrivelled like an unwatered plant.
third for the patiance that comes from only somebody locked into an unfair but inescapable hell.
fourth the enlightenment from that hell.
fifth, getting on, getting on.
harming none,
harming none.
friday is nice. a real soft kitten. thanks, friday, for treating me gently. you even clipped your long fingernails for me. you made me a sandwich...and i didn't even ask you to. what a magical serpent you are, what a fruit bearing tree. friday, i'm leaving my marriage for you. he doesn't just make me a sandwich. i have to ask for everything. yeah, he...
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friedhamster:
Hahaha, it should be pink poo too! Or purple. I guess it could be red, it might look bloody then... hahahahahaha!!!
It's from a shirt (the clown) from an online store and it's just so great. I don't know If I'll really get it but boy it'd be a winner.
It's from a shirt (the clown) from an online store and it's just so great. I don't know If I'll really get it but boy it'd be a winner.
a little pissed
just spent time writing a poem
lost it because my son is playing limbo with the powercord.
fucking a.
maybe later.
just spent time writing a poem
lost it because my son is playing limbo with the powercord.
fucking a.
maybe later.
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mtlqueen:
Strega, the writer! Yes, I do remember. It's nice to resurface every now and again, isn't it? I am well versed in the "my, how life changes right before our very eyes" department.
A friend of mine just wrote a script about a girl from R.I....
A friend of mine just wrote a script about a girl from R.I....
nice day, but the sun isn't out. i am briefly ignoring my one year old to write this. both he and i are in good moods but the night and early morning was rocky. at 4:30 am i was couch bound, desperatly needing to remove both me and my tits from the milk monster - a kind of vampire, really. co-sleeping with a child is...
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vervain______:
better change something, if you want a change, right?
right.
right.