eating chocolate chip cookies (homemade), watching the show most haunted. it is a good night. hubs put the baby back to sleep which is greatly appreciated and here i am on the couch eating my bon - bons. 
needed to get rid of the last entry. time moves things along.....
sketchy_mf:
...and so does red curry....
avalokitesvara:
At first I thought this was some mystery entry that you later thought better of and came back and replaced with what you have now. But I just figured out you were just bored of seeing the one before it. I thought I had missed out on some great mystery. Oh well. I guess life isn't as mysterious as I thought.
woke up at 909pm. he was gone. it was already arranged. almost every light in the apartment was turned off. i got to the tv. before that, the sun starting to go down with the gold coming through the window. it was an intense contrast. i didn't plan on falling to sleep but my body takes what it can. sometimes it shuts off and it...
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avalokitesvara:
Squash that ugly voice like a bug!
You don't deserve it.
You just need some
and some and some 
and some 
and some 
.
Glad you got a nap anyway.
You don't deserve it.
You just need some
and some and some and some and some .
Glad you got a nap anyway.
y:
Ah, someone around here who has taste in music, at last! So she's made a second one? I didn't know that, thanks for the heads up; I'll keep an eye out for it.
The voice whispering in your ear is just a voice - it has no pulse. It's not worth a pinch of salt.
So she's made a second one? I didn't know that, thanks for the heads up; I'll keep an eye out for it.
The voice whispering in your ear is just a voice - it has no pulse. It's not worth a pinch of salt.
i'm a pirate and i'm going to make you walk the plank....
(checks for sharks first and sees them)
even better! off you go.....
(just for kicks i stick my sword's blade in your back first, before the plummet.)
(checks for sharks first and sees them)
even better! off you go.....
(just for kicks i stick my sword's blade in your back first, before the plummet.)
avalokitesvara:
Yar!
y:
Well, thanks for the encouragement; I've never been called "the bee's knees" before, so that's something
There's a great version of 'All the Pretty Little Horses' on Kristin Hersh's album of weird kids songs and murder ballads 'Murder, Misery, then Goodnight' - give it a listen if you can.
Well, thanks for the encouragement; I've never been called "the bee's knees" before, so that's something
There's a great version of 'All the Pretty Little Horses' on Kristin Hersh's album of weird kids songs and murder ballads 'Murder, Misery, then Goodnight' - give it a listen if you can.
go to sleep
go to sleep
go to sleep
my
little
bay
be.
when you wake,
you shall have
all
the pretty little
horses.
with this fine plush,
these soft words,
this
soft hand,
even me out.
spread me over
this world.
blanketing it
from
all the cold.
a million lights
began there.
a million lights
ended there.
preserved.
they began white
but turned red...
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go to sleep
go to sleep
my
little
bay
be.
when you wake,
you shall have
all
the pretty little
horses.
with this fine plush,
these soft words,
this
soft hand,
even me out.
spread me over
this world.
blanketing it
from
all the cold.
a million lights
began there.
a million lights
ended there.
preserved.
they began white
but turned red...
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avalokitesvara:
You're making...
me...
sleep...
y......
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
me...
sleep...
y......
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i think i hear you
but your not here.
that door,
though open,
lets out
no sound.
i even
ran outside
without shoes
to try to stop you
from taking him
away.
we could
go to the zoo
i say, or
to the children's museum.
wouldn't that
be fun?
but you
waved me back inside
it was easy for you
and i retreated
climbing the...
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but your not here.
that door,
though open,
lets out
no sound.
i even
ran outside
without shoes
to try to stop you
from taking him
away.
we could
go to the zoo
i say, or
to the children's museum.
wouldn't that
be fun?
but you
waved me back inside
it was easy for you
and i retreated
climbing the...
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sketchy_mf:
You should have kept dreaming......
onward.....
y:
...and upward?
...into the fray?
...into the fray?
"sunday, sunday...can't trust that day...." today the babe went down early as the night was filled with restlessness and minimal sleep...the usual tossing and turning, with cries of frustration peppering the mix (mine and his). i drank coffee today (my answer to lack of sleep) furthering my tiredness, as i am no longer tired enough to lay down with him. i told myself i wouldn't...
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friedhamster:
I was thinking of these on my walk home. But insteand of coming here first and putting them all down I ate dinner and I seemed to have forgotten a few.
You're right about that. Both about it being true and being hard to remember sometimes.
You're right about that. Both about it being true and being hard to remember sometimes.
avalokitesvara:
So, you're doing Easter brunches and Passover seders? That must keep you busy covering all the Judeo-Christian bases.
keeping it short and as a continuation...my stepmother was an arse. she called me decietful. never have been, never will be. i'm tired. i hate it when people blame others for their own issues.
goodnight.
goodnight.
friedhamster:
Everyone is still my friend. I'm just a mess right now.
Don't try and get me to explain why removing all my friends on here made sense to me, I have not an anwser.
Don't try and get me to explain why removing all my friends on here made sense to me, I have not an anwser.
got in trouble with my stepmother. i hurt her for not coming to seder dinner. mostly i have been a flake about my cellphone...losing it, leaving it at home, forgetting to charge the fucker. well, it seems the message i erased with her annoying and grating voice contained some important info about last night's dinner. i never would have not gone had i been aware....
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cathshee:
My don't you look cute with your blonde locks and vacant expression? Don't let her push you around just tell her Ronan comes first before her and her obsession with "events". Better yet move back out here and let her fly across the god damn nation to see you. Here in "Little Beruit" if she dares! 
avalokitesvara:
Communication with family can be tough. I'm gonna be a nerd and recommend another book. 
It's just that I've found it to be a tremendous help in my life on a number of levels. It's called Nonviolent Communication by Marshal Rosenberg. Check it out, if you get a chance - maybe it will help.
In what way is Portland a "Little Beirut?"
It's just that I've found it to be a tremendous help in my life on a number of levels. It's called Nonviolent Communication by Marshal Rosenberg. Check it out, if you get a chance - maybe it will help.
In what way is Portland a "Little Beirut?"
colored half of my hair blue...and what do you know? i don't like it. (goddamn you, lackwit, for being right, it even bugs ME) i must remind myself when engaged in any kind of obsession it would be the perfect time to stop what i'm doing and try to figure out why i think i want something so badly. so what. you want blue hair....
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need to dye some of my hair blue. i say "need" because that is what some of my ideas are bound to turn into, an obsession of some kind. really, in itself, blue hair is no big deal, and yet, here i am wanting blue hair. why? (i thought about this long and hard yesterday) because i do, that's why. need i say more? plus,...
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rustgiraffe:
besides..blue is hard to get. it always fades to some hideous green color.
punky colors use to do a 'spring green' that was just divine!!
punky colors use to do a 'spring green' that was just divine!!
y:
Yeah, you would bug me I don't know. I (unlike others ^^^) consider the au natural look to be the most becoming and the most unusual look around. Coloured hair is everywhere, especially around here; it is the norm. But hey - if blue is pretty in your world just now, then have a ball; private worlds are the best.
I look really ordinary, and yet very unusual at the same time; people seem to sense I'm unusual no-matter how plainly I'm garbed.
I don't know. I (unlike others ^^^) consider the au natural look to be the most becoming and the most unusual look around. Coloured hair is everywhere, especially around here; it is the norm. But hey - if blue is pretty in your world just now, then have a ball; private worlds are the best.
I look really ordinary, and yet very unusual at the same time; people seem to sense I'm unusual no-matter how plainly I'm garbed.
(God, I'm such a geek.)