vermicious

oh man, I so don't want to go back to work. not sure what the problem is but the closer i get to starting a new job the more anxiety i feel...

i just don't feel up to all of the hoop jumping social pretense that inevitably goes along with any job... why does making the boss feel better about him/herself have to be an unwritten part of the job description? and why does it seem like so many employers are either stupid or deliberately obtuse, is it just part of the control game?

ah fuck it, self pity is a luxury and i need to suck it up and do what needs to be done. job ho!