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I said I would finish my story, but that was a lie. I am instead going to listen to my gin and tonic and get my study and clean on. I have always been the kind of student that can just float through my classes, but I have always wanted to try. Maximum effort style. I feel like all the pieces are there now. Either that or I've lost my mind. Wouldn't be the first time!

I miss having company. I spent my winter break surrounded by people that care about me. My goat first, then my family. I am a people person when it comes down to it, and I feel a bit lost floating in my little bubble. I have taken to renting movies, just to see the people on the screen. I spend evenings with my rented houseguests lusting after something else.

I am so self aware that it makes me want to shut it all off for a while. I know how I will react to almost anything. I just am not clarvoyant, and the actions of others are what is dynamic. I careen from desires of grandeur to those of the most base simplicity. I know what I want I just am unsure of the order sometimes. Someone forgot to CC: me on that one.

I have promised myself that if I can commit to something this semester then I will be allowed to cut my hair for the summer. There are moments when I have proven to myself my desire to wed myself completely and unconditionally to success, but why is the assignment so random? I am as of yet unsure what most demands my attention at the moment. I know where to start my epic.

Do you like to share? For me the ultimate is sharing. It incorporates giving of one's self, and is coupled with the selfishness of receiving. But one cannot dump the load of a thousand horses upon the back of one camel.

Nothing good comes easy, and thus I must don the yoke of labor.