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Slipping eyelids shut over aching eyes
sealing out the blaring light which prys through
despite my protests to the contrary
my mouth has been sealed shut far too long
yours has not been blessed as such
when your eyes beckon me forward
and your arms callously thrust me back
whence i came
thus herky jerk ride frightens me
the little girl shyly gazing upon you
with veiled looks
she may not be touched for fear
fear is that plague
evil sickness of the mind, body and soul
proponent of weakness or instigator?
you may not taunt me
for i will not stand it
it may appear as such, but i know the truth
one day i will find a seam
that seam grows day by day
until a chasm has formed
and on that day
there will be vengence for the unspoken
your duality is so similar to my own
yet is concurrently so alien that i cringe
at the slime oozing from your core
like some outpouring of warmth
can make up for season after season of searing cold
i smile and concede
but this is noted
similar to layaway is my emotion
get it now, pay later
buy on credit
i too have overdrawn
so innately meticulous
but now broken, spirit fractured
innocence spilled down the storm drain
i hope it won't flow to a major body of water
for contamination would be tragic
have i gathered karmic debt to the limit
and now must reap a sorrowful crop of wilted plant
i have searched for her from every angle
every angel?
but she has departed it would seem
at this pivotal moment
how do i live without her
a life deviod of passion
there are few that know
none save one that can unseal the code
head filled with lead weights
i feel it seeping out
displacing true wisdom for tomfoolery
my enemy is fear