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Peace out. I'm hungover, I gotta work, and so i leave you with this.


So long SG. It's been wonderful, painful, and enilghtening.


Rachel. You never deserved me. You deserved someone more. I'm sorry I hurt you. But I wasn't good for you. I'm not good
for anyone right now. You ARE beautiful. I don't give a shit what you say. I will always treasure the time you read poetry
to me. Simply wonderful.

Laura. I hope you find what you're looking for. I hope life finally treats you well. We'll always have the
next life right?

Becky. We'll always have As Good As It Gets. Be happy! You have alot to be happy for.

Grithman. You're the man. 'Nuff said. Now ladies- get 'im before some worthless bitch snatches him up.

Koala, you are the type of girl I used to crush on in high school. You are too awesome. You always made me smile.
You always made me feel like there was a hug waiting for me somewhere. It's a lovely feeling to have. Thank you for that.

Keelencore. I enjoyed our banter. Be the spoiled rich girl! Enjoy it! Fuck it. The only life you're guaranteed is the
one you're living. Personally, I like your knees.

BigPoppa. Chin up man. You're a good dude and from what I know, a loving father. At the risk of sounding like a dick; Bitches
ain't shit but hoes and tricks. At least the ones that left us are. But I'm not trippin. You'll find a girl that will treat you
right. I still cling to the fantasy that nice guys can finish first.

Josh. You're cool. I know hanging with you owuld become geek-fest heaven.

That guy. Fuck it up and I'll break your face. Have a nice day.

Tuesday. I'll always be in love with you. Not in the conventional sense that everyone always assumes.
But something more, something special. Like you said; nobody gets us. I kind of like that. I wish I had the time to commit to you that you deserve.
I wish I could have given you more. But you know what's up. You aren't just a best friend, or a could have been. You are the other
half of my soul that I was lucky enough to run into. But you have your life and I have mine. I'm glad you could find someone who could make you happy.
You know how to get at me if you ever need to.




I have to go. Away from this site, among other things. I need to work. I need to take care of my kids. I need to get my finances straight.
I need to put my life back together. I've been running from it. This site has played a huge part in that. So I need to cut it loose.

I'm running on vapors. I'm at the end of my rope and my hands are bleeding. But I'm going to fucking climb back up despite the down-talk,
despite the temptation to take the easy way out.

I may be a sucker, a loser, a poor excuse for a thirty year old man, but I'm not a coward. There have been more tragic rags-to-riches stories.
Maybe I'll be an E! True Hollywood Story someday.





Thank you for letting me be part of this community. Thank you for every comment, every chat, every smile, and every laugh.
You guys saved me in the beginning. It's time for me to save myself.












Peace out.

Stay gangsta.


-vinny







I see the world through restless and hopeful eyes, but my glasses seem to be jaded.
I reach out my hand to have others pull away, and still my hope hasn't faded.
I see smiles on two dirty little faces, recieve wet kisses on my cheeks and remind my heart that I want to live.
I empty my pockets and pour out all of my love, because it's all I can afford to give.
I make calls to hear laughter, to feel a smile and sing a song with the best kind of friend.
I talk of trivial matters and times long gone by until I hear no one on the other end.
I hope and I dream, I laugh and I forget, it's all that seems to keep me sane.
I keeping moving towards my sunset, chasing that rainbow, just so I can personaly handGreatness my name.



And with that, I ask this final question:

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One day you'll look to see I've gone.
For tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun.
Some day you'll know I was the one.
But tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun.
And now the time has come
And so my love I must go.
And though I lose a friend,
In the end you'll know, oooh.

One day you'll find that I have gone.
For tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun.
Yes, tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun.
And now the time has come
And so my love I must go.
And though I lose a friend,
In the end you'll know, oooh.

One day you'll find that I have gone.
For tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun.