venti_mistake

I'm looking at old pictures of good times in Spain. Nothing but snow, waves, drinks, and smiles.
Man, when did I become so jaded? The glass wasn't just half-full, it was spilling over.

Too many heart breaks maybe? Whatever. I'm whining.

I can't sleep.

Too excited about getting inked tommorow. Ribs. Ouch.
But the design is sooo fucking cool! At least it is to me.

I think I'm getting lonely. Fuck. I thought I could hang with this alone thing. Human nature always wins out I guess. -UGH...stop whining!!!

On a lighter note, I had one of the best conversations of my life tonight. Yeah, it was pretty awesome. Lots of smiles all around. At least I can say I have really awesome friends.

I ate a veggie sub today and I burped onions all day. It was pretty grody dude.

I know what set this whole lonely thing off. I saw Sydney. She acknowledged my existence. She even gave me the time of day, really. I wasn't wearing a watch. She talked to me like we'd always been friends. This girl never said two things to me in psych class. I don't even think she noticed when I gave my report on autism. She was wearing a black skirt and a white tank top and white flip flops.



Oh gawd, I'm over it. Being alone is cool. No stress, no sweat, no drama.

No drama.

Problem is, I miss having someone to share with, someone who knows me. I miss giving myself.

It's just late and I'm tired.

I went through my cd collection and discovered, well shit, I have alot of cool cds.







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Yo can you hear me?
Well uh this goes out to you
Do you know who you are?
Do you know?
Come on

I just wanna let you know
Can't hold back just let it flow
If you want me
And I just wanna make you see
Here is where you want to be
If you want me


Where do all of your emotions go
Cause I don't feel your arms holding me
And when it gets cold at night
And my body is warm
Don't you know that I'm all that you need

Cause I just wanna be with you
Whenever you want me to
And anything that you ask
I would do
And baby I hope you understand
That I got feelings
When all of my feelings are just being used

I just wanna let you know
Can't hold back just let it flow
If you want me
And I just wanna make you see
Here is where you want to be
If you want me


I'll be your emotions as they fall in the wind
I am more then you say
Your warm desire within
I'll be your emotions as they fall in the wind
I am more then your heart's best friend

Cause I just wanna be with you
Whenever you want me to
And anything that you ask
I would do
And baby I hope you understand
That I got feelings
When all of my feelings are just being used

I just wanna let you know
Can't hold back just let it flow
If you want me
And I just wanna make you see
Here is where you want to be
If you want me


I'm fallin' in love 'gain
You're being my friend 'gain
We're making sweet love
We're making sweet love babe
It's sweeter then morning dew
You know I'm so into you
There's no other touch
And it hurts me so much

I just wanna let you know
Can't hold back just let it flow
If you want me
And I just wanna make you see
Here is where you want to be
If you want me


Come on come on
Come on come on, come on come on
What you think hun, Ma$e be young, Ma$e be dumb
Get Ma$e strung, there'll be no pre-numb?
But ever since B.I.G. died, my life's changed
Got the blue, I'm your boo, that's quite strange
I get nice thangs, way out the price range
And half these girls, don't even know my right name
See a fly rollie, mink made of coyote
Love a ghetto chick, I know she died for me
You got me confussed, see Cam the freak

Ma$e never the playa, bring sand to the beach
I'm sumthin' that the average girl hand couldn't reach
Living expenses, 20 grand a week
You know me, I be O-T, low key
Platnuim rollie, smokin' a O-Z
I'm that babyfaced playa, without no goatee
2 point 8, and about to go 3

I just wanna let you know
Can't hold back just let it flow
If you want me
And I just wanna make you see
Here is where you want to be
If you want me

I just wanna let you know
Can't hold back just let it flow
If you want me
And I just wanna make you see
Here is where you want to be
If you want me

-Total