First of all,
Rachel, I love you!!!
Shit went down today in my parent's household. My son is sick. He has an ear infection. I had to work this morning. I was going to take him to the doc's at noon after work. My ex-wife decided that she was too busy to accompany me to help me out even though, oh- I don't know, he IS her son too after all. So my parent's take issue with this. Apparently it's my fault that my ex can be a bitch, it's my fault that I ever married her in the first place, I have no balls, I'm a loser, I'm a bad father, no wonder she left me. Mind you these are my own parents saying this. So I did what any other person would do. I blew up. Completely and totally. So bad that my parents called my ex over to talk and settle things once and for all. It turned into an all out "it's vinny's fault" point-your-finger-at-me-fest.
I hate keeping score but here it goes:
1. I turned down a chance to be a cryptological spook with a $60,000 bonus and a secure career in the Navy because my ex and my parents told me to finish school. Fine.
2. When my ex said she didn't want kids at first I didn't mind. When she decided she did, I wept like a fool at the news of my sons conception. I spent everywaking hour with him and let her sleep through EVERY night.
3. I did the same for my daughter.
4. I single handedly raised my son and went to school full time AND held down a part time job while she was deployed for a year sending me pictures of her slamming mai tais and staying at Hyatts around the world. Defending the country my ass!
5. I didn't ask fo this divorce, she did.
6. I love my kids and it actually shows.
Long story short, my parents now don't talk to me unless they have to. I'm staying with them until I have my own place and they will put up with me because that is what family does. I have earned the right to fucking live my life for ME now. Sorry mom and dad, I'm not a FUCKING doctor or lawyer, never wanted to be. If my son came to me and said he wanted to be a fucking NASCAR driver I'd fucking support his dream in every way I can. If you did that for me once I decided to become an artist, maybe things would be different.
My ex even laid off of me, to my surprise, once she realized that I was getting majorly shat upon. I guess the she DOES have a conciense after all.
I like I said in my previous journal, I will make shit happen for me and this WILL be my fucking year if it kills me! If you don't have anything constructive to contribute then just stay the fuck out of my life!!! I'm through with poisonous people. I'm a nice guy dammit!!! Quit trying to make me an asshole!!!!!!!!!
Rachel, I love you!!!
Shit went down today in my parent's household. My son is sick. He has an ear infection. I had to work this morning. I was going to take him to the doc's at noon after work. My ex-wife decided that she was too busy to accompany me to help me out even though, oh- I don't know, he IS her son too after all. So my parent's take issue with this. Apparently it's my fault that my ex can be a bitch, it's my fault that I ever married her in the first place, I have no balls, I'm a loser, I'm a bad father, no wonder she left me. Mind you these are my own parents saying this. So I did what any other person would do. I blew up. Completely and totally. So bad that my parents called my ex over to talk and settle things once and for all. It turned into an all out "it's vinny's fault" point-your-finger-at-me-fest.
I hate keeping score but here it goes:
1. I turned down a chance to be a cryptological spook with a $60,000 bonus and a secure career in the Navy because my ex and my parents told me to finish school. Fine.
2. When my ex said she didn't want kids at first I didn't mind. When she decided she did, I wept like a fool at the news of my sons conception. I spent everywaking hour with him and let her sleep through EVERY night.
3. I did the same for my daughter.
4. I single handedly raised my son and went to school full time AND held down a part time job while she was deployed for a year sending me pictures of her slamming mai tais and staying at Hyatts around the world. Defending the country my ass!
5. I didn't ask fo this divorce, she did.
6. I love my kids and it actually shows.
Long story short, my parents now don't talk to me unless they have to. I'm staying with them until I have my own place and they will put up with me because that is what family does. I have earned the right to fucking live my life for ME now. Sorry mom and dad, I'm not a FUCKING doctor or lawyer, never wanted to be. If my son came to me and said he wanted to be a fucking NASCAR driver I'd fucking support his dream in every way I can. If you did that for me once I decided to become an artist, maybe things would be different.
My ex even laid off of me, to my surprise, once she realized that I was getting majorly shat upon. I guess the she DOES have a conciense after all.
I like I said in my previous journal, I will make shit happen for me and this WILL be my fucking year if it kills me! If you don't have anything constructive to contribute then just stay the fuck out of my life!!! I'm through with poisonous people. I'm a nice guy dammit!!! Quit trying to make me an asshole!!!!!!!!!
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Chin up lil' camper
You have to take solace in the fact that you are a great father to your children. Channeling all the love and energy you have to provide for them will pay off tenfold. Wish I could give you a big hug and a cup of hot tea. It will be your year, I am sure of it. :hugs: