venillarose

What a fucking weekend!! My marriage was very close to being over.

Its been a very stressful weekend and I am so glad its over. I hope i never have to repeat it again. Although I guess it could have been a lot worse.

I found out on the weekend (at work) that my husband had sent my friend some msg asking her if she wants to (to put it really bluntly) fuck.
Nothing came of it, the next morning after her sent it to her he sent her another one saying it was a mistake and he didn't mean it.

This happened last week and I noticed her had been acting funny all week but wouldn't talk to me about anything. My friend keep trying to meet up but because i was busy the only time i could see her was at work. She really didn't want to talk to me at work but had to tell me. The strange thing was that when I went to work on Friday night Adam insisted on coming in and just 'hanging out'. he knows i don't like it when he comes in but he was really persistent. I find out later that he came in cos he wanted to tell her not to tell me. But she told me anyway.

But after a lot of talking, tears, some yelling, some smashed picture frames and a hole in the wall (that I put there) we are going to try to make things work. Its going to take some time to get the trust back but hopefully we can pull through.

Maybe this is what those dreams have been about.

Who knows, but I do know this and everything else I have been dealing with over the last few months is taking a toll on my body. I am going to go and get a check up this week just to make sure everything is ok with the baby. I have had a bit of pain the last few days.

And to make things even easier. Last night I was up nearly all night with my daughter. She has another ear infection i think. So i can add lack of sleep to the list too. 6 hours sleep since Thursday night is not enough for a normal person let alone a pregnant one.

But i guess life is all about the ups and downs. At least I can learn something all from this and become a stronger person.