venillarose

Yesterday we had a huge BBQ to celebrate Mine and Adams birthdays. it was really good. anyway i had a bit to drink, same as everyone else. when everyone had left Adam and i went to bed and started getting hot and heavy, then the strangest thing happened. I got flashbacks to a not so nice sexual encounter i had years ago and started crying and beating the shit out of Adam. he obviously stopped instantly and tried to calm me down after about an hour of crying and shaking i had calmed down and Adam massaged me to sleep but it was so strange because i had never had anything like this before. Adam wasn't doing anything i didn't like or hurting me but i just freaked out. i don't want it to happen again but i don't know if this is something i should get help for? i never got help when that particular time happened maybe i should have?
I don't even know why i am writing it on here but i guess it just helps to get it out there and talk about it??
I felt really bad cos it kinda freaked Adam out he was so worried. i think it kinda scared him. he kept asking me if someone had hurt me. i think he thought something had happened and i hadn't told him. does anyone know if these kinda flashbacks are normal? its been years since anyone has hurt me and i thought i had gotten past that part of my life?
obviously not.