back back back. well that was a whole BIG ol polava. got my head sorted out and round the whole dad thing finally. got myself a lil baby girl who is the most beautiful thing i've ever laid eyes on 
cant believe what i went through in my head to come to a decision that seems so plainly obvious now. still as they say retrospect is a great thing. without it we'd never learn i guess. life really gotten hectic now, new job, new place, new baby, new life really i guess; i feel a million miles away from the guy that almost ran away and missed out on the best thing to ever happen in his life.... i know its not for everyone but dont knock it til you've tried it. quite funny really. i know i've probably got hell to pay and my kid is gonna drag me all the way through but im sure gonna enjoy it. only wish i cud ave realised this earlier!
cant believe what i went through in my head to come to a decision that seems so plainly obvious now. still as they say retrospect is a great thing. without it we'd never learn i guess. life really gotten hectic now, new job, new place, new baby, new life really i guess; i feel a million miles away from the guy that almost ran away and missed out on the best thing to ever happen in his life.... i know its not for everyone but dont knock it til you've tried it. quite funny really. i know i've probably got hell to pay and my kid is gonna drag me all the way through but im sure gonna enjoy it. only wish i cud ave realised this earlier!
Retrospect is indeed a great thing. x