velvetfaerie

fuck you!! I wanted to get laid on valentines day!

i guess if i Deserved one I would have one.

Did you know that for it to be real bourbon it has to be made in KY? just another reason for you to come to KY.

What is a nang?

You don't even know what cold is, it has been between 19 degrees F and 0 degrees F, I don't know what that is in C.

Festivals are the shit hey!? Im counting down the days til i can return to the green hills of Deutcheland to return to the metal fest circuit

yeah, not really... but thanks

Sorry it took me so long to get back to you.

Every one at my job acts like they are still in high school.

Does that mean you are going to come and stay in KY with me?

I just got the car today, it's a Dodge Calibce.

I think your cat is being very restrained. Luckily my Toby is scared of most things, so he probably would've run away from the cello as soon as he saw'd it.

Cause he's a scared-y cat.

You need to teach him to play that. then you would be rich.

He won't eat lasagne? What kind of cat is he

what kind of music do you sing? I hope you get to be on a CD.

Well if you do come to the US you should come and visit with me.

ya thats why i hated office work before. you spend all day filing and computering and there are ppl everywhere but they're all doing the same thing and there's no interaction.
pubs are great cos i love customers, but you often need to work for old men who are so bitter about being old and lonely they take it out on their staff. haha like jim my former boss. gosh i hope he dies badly.
its so easy to forget dreams as we get caught up in having money and a grown up life and not letting down ppl around us. we need to think, what about me?
i bought shoes today

mountain biking....sounds like heaps of fun...

glad you are feeling better, friends are really important....

take care, oh and are you going to the absinth club?

Thanks. I hope you are right, but I think they have poisned his mind, and made him hate me by now.

my poor fairy! i know how you feel pooky but hey it gets better. and i've only just realised saying no rocks! so much that when i went wakeboarding on friday, fatima was like stop rocking the boat, but it wasn't my fault, everywhere i go rocks.
just a little i'm cool humour there to try cheer you up.
but serioulsy, shit happens and it sucks. and, the ppl that fuck you over are often really fun to hang out with until you realise whats going on, and thats when you're like FUCK and cut them off, then you miss them, and start hanging out again, then you remember why you stopped and it really is an endless cycle.
its really hard to be strong, but you can join me in my new year of no ppl that fuck me off. and i was seeing this guy jared and he's hot!!! like so hot and 28 and so funny and smart. and he always flicked me with teatowels and did annoying boy things. i said it was annoying and he didn't care and kept doing it. so i told him to fuck offf, have ignored his calls and msg's and i'm fine with that. my poiint is, you can only put up with so much, and from now on i'm not putting up with ANY shit and leaving for the little things. the little things make up every day
and this girl is a really good friend until she doesn't agree with something you say/do, then its LECTURE and HISSY FIT TIME. jerrym was there for one of them. i keep forgiving her and going oh well deep down she's a good person. now i'm like who care's if deep down she's a good person, on the surface she's a cunt, and thats what i see the most.
i'm seeing ppl i like more and i've done gym workouts two days in a row which is a total record for me.
again, my point, surround yourself with stuff you like, and remember its better to travel the road alone then have bad company (christmas cracker wisdom)

this is one of my problems
divesting energy into
people that are just
energy and emotion
suckers
like vacuum cleaners

but having the pleasure
of your company
and your lovely conversation
i believe that you
dont deserve to be treated
badly by anyone

so stick to your new
years resolution sweetheart
and divest all energy back
to yourself and not outwards
to people that are not going
to return it to you when required

you rock velv

jc
xxx

Sorry about that, but there is still time. I think I need a few more to be properly toasted.

Sounds like my kinda' place! I'm jealous.

Happy New Year!

hey vf
i so know
what you mean

i understand
and appreciate
your feelings

although i dont
mind the hugs thing
its just that there
is noone worth
hugging lol

talk soon

jc

xxx

I just found your blog and wanted to say hi. You aren't the only person to feel the way you do. Especially at Christmas time.
I too have my bad days still, and things just seem so overwhelming. Particularly because everyone would try and have you believe that they are happy and filled with festive cheer.
If more people were honest like you are, most of us would be feeling pretty average at Christmas. There are just too many stresses.

Fear with letting someone close makes perfect sense. Sometimes, we all need to take that leap of faith when it comes to relationships and hope that everything will be okay.

As for hugs - ditto. With people I know and trust it's okay, but I have issues with getting hugs from new people.
My mom is a stranger to me. Talking to her is always so hard.

So, yeah - I just wanted to stop in, say hi and let you know you aren't alone. I could have written a lot of what you wrote.

Take care. Kye.

Thanks! Merry Xmas to you, too! Nice pic! Glad you got it worked out...

well it makes me really mad to, but I don't think there is any need to kill anyone, that would make us just as bad as them.