I knew this mornings class would be uncomfortable after he not saying yes or no after I asked him out on a platonic outing to smooth shit over last Sunday. Just so he could work and I could attend his, (actually good) classes without the shit hanging in the air.
No he decided to find new levels of fuck tardery this am.
It has taken me 2 years to have the confidence enough to join the gym 400m from my house. Part of the reason I bought my house is because of having every intention of getting healthy and returning to the world of exercise. I have worked fucking hard to get fit, healthy, clean, sober EVERYTHING, (basically sort my fucking shit out)......
This morning, yes awkward. That's OK. To be expected. Time would've fixed that. Insult to injury = he decided to film us ladies in the circuit class doing what we were there to do, (on his personal mobile phone). No warning, no permission requests, not a fucking god damn thing. I was not comfortable with this at all, reasons being 1) my fucked up self perception and 2) I am pretty sure he is not allowed to do that by rules and law!
Then he spoke to my friend who came and joined in today, first time. She is working on her fitness again. He said to her, "so she is the negative association you have with the gym". IN front of me. I turned and said = "excuse me?"
I then turned and walked out stifling tears. Asked the reception lady what the rules are regarding the filming. She looked pissed. She could see he had really upset me. She knows about the comment too. I left in tears by that time.
I don't know what to do now. I am assuming he will be in the shit. I feel like shit.
