In my neighbourhood the last 2 days we have had a gun seige, (which ended up not being a GUN!), people being attacked, and new, (ugly) graffiti.
Spent all day today talking to the previously mentioned male. Was interesting. Lots of deep and meaningful crap. I even confessed a crush I had on him about 12 years ago. No one ever ever EVER had been told until today. Why? I was engaged, (to a cheating asshole), and he was married, (to a woman who become a cheating slag). I hated myself for having a crush on another guy. So we spoke of all sorts of stuff. No coffee date yet set. LOL !!!!!!!!!!
I have more to worry about to be honest. Today for the first time in her life, I had to return my dog home after setting off for a run. Her arthritis is slowing her down. I also believe she has very early ascites of an unknown, (and not obvious), cause. I took her home. She was confused, stared at me, and layed at the gate. I left. Trying to run without your training partner of 12.5 years, (I adopted her when she was about a year old when I worked for the RSPCA), and choking on snot and tears doesn't work.
Emotional day really.
So, me and dog are off to my old workplace on saturday for use of old colleagues and diagnostic tools.
I just hope that whatever is going on, can be made more comfortable. I am pretty convinced it will be palliative care now.
No amount of years in the field, experience and knowledge on my part can help either of us. I have seen it all and done a hell of a lot of it. Still hasn't prepared me for shit.
I am feeling very lost right now. Probably over reacting as a bit of knowledge can be dangerous.
