What is it like without someone to talk to...

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I don't know how many people go through this, but for me I have only had myself to talk to for the last 13 years. I am not close to my family at all.

I hang out with one person I have known for years but he is not someone I can talk to about stuff. We only hang out every once in a while because he fails to make time to do so. I understand it I am lowest on the totem pole for him.

I try to look for people to talk to on the internet, but that is a joke I have no clue where to look and where I am looking all I get are people that have the attention span of an hour maybe two, then they disappear. So its constantly a lot of work for no gain.

I just need someone that will actually talk to me....

Someone that will ask me things and be interested in what I might say...

Joke around with me ....

I'm not asking for anything other than a friend that maybe is willing to listen or talk to me so that I am not so alone. I am super introverted so I rarely leave my house because I freak out around a lot of people and get uncomfortable fast. SO I can only survive in limited amounts of time in public.

Can anyone point me in the right direction...

oldernow:
meeting for the first time is like staying married: you have to find a common interest that is beyond each individual's personal shit.  we all shit. it stinks, and we sometimes need to get that shit out and so on.  but finding another person/s who are interested in Legos, the Mets, the same singer as you, the local politicians, the lost dogs of the area--whatever.  two people sit down facing each other across a table. they will never get closer.  then something happens across the street and they turn **together** to look out the window **together** and they are now quite close compared to the amazing/weird/shitty thing out there.   the assumption that you are not like anyone else is both wrong and lazy.  i am a paralyzed vegetarian in a rural area.  I have made friends with other paralytics, vegetarians, and farmfolk near and far.  it took some time, and not all was easy or fun or without embarrassment, but it can happen.  Finally, i strongly recommend reading or listening to the Dalai Lama and/or a beautiful young Norwegian singer: Aurora - her "live" (now youtubed) talks before or about her singing.
francy:
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