veder

In 3 weeks time I leave Sydney, on my own.
Going up North for sea and sunshine, but am going alone and am scared! I know I came over here on my own and I met some amazing people and settled in but that was almost 8 months ago and now leaving here somehow feels like I am leaving home all over again. I'm leaving my little first Aussie home and my 'family' here. Also the boy, even though he's the ex (we're still sleeping together, it's such a mess). I'm hiding from him how I really feel about him as I know he only wants us to fool around, he broke up with me so he definitely doesn't want a relationship again so I hide things from him. I'm happiest when we're laying in bed together and he acts like he still loves me but never says so so neither do I. Leaving him is going to be hard but I have too really. I can't hang around here waiting for the possibility that he will change his mind. And also it's far too cold here in Sydney now, it reminds me of home too much and I hate it.

So, any suggestions?! Where do I go?
Should I be scared?
Vederrrr
xxx