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you know...I really like The Neverending Story
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if you happen to pass by here, if you could, recommend me a book that's got fascinating science stuff with a touch of wonder. So far I've considered Hyperspace and The Dancing Wu-Li Masters. The latter seems to get mentioned alot if you read the kind of stuff I do.
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I have horniness like the next guy, if not more of it, but i have rarely if ever thought with my penis. i have never in my life had the kind of sex which explains or justifies to me why people go apeshit over it, do stupid things, hurtful things in order to get it. That's right, I've never had 'good' sex. Whatever that is.
The 'Game' ceased long ago to be something about getting trophies and being some sort of virile dog. Now it's about feeling attractive, wanted and complete. If you can believe it, it's even harder on a guy than it is on a girl. But that may be because I only have my own experience and no one elses.
I don't think this is 'normal' male thought or behaviour.
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EDIT:
I have finally completed my UCAS form. This Monday it goes by express to my Head of Department. Here is the final version of my Personal Statement. I removed all the names because when Gabriella elaborated I agreed with her that I should write more about my own ideas rather than about admiring somebody elses. Also, the space was a lot smaller.
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I chose Artificial Intelligence for I feel I have found a subject which combines the realm of the linear and the logic with the realm of the abstract and the tenebrous. More than machine language and silicon protocols, it is also the fascination of metaphysics, linguistics and psychology. Order and Chaos embraced, for sentience contains both. Although I expect to apply myself within the boundaries of a programming language, I don't see it as a limitation, but rather a poetic metaphor of ourselves.
In the gaming industry, A.I. is growing in importance as a feature of games. I would like to create A.I. indistinguishable from humans. By learning more about what makes us tick, then coding it, I hope to bestow qualities of hubris, paranoia, compassion, erraticism and even faith.
In a more ambitious humanitarian turn, I want to be able to create A.I. - married to the right equipment - that can help find land mines or missing persons. An A.I. that would learn from it's own experience, creatively interpret obscure patterns in it's experience and design it's own superior search algorithms.
Ultimately it is a way to delve deeply into what a 'mind' is. Within A.I., I gain a springboard and an anchor from which to explore. By learning to construct a 'mind' for one of our own creations, I may learn the secrets to unlocking the full potential of our own minds.
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I had one line of space left. It will do well. I'm going to get accepted for sure. Just please let it be Reading!
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EDIT #2:
I just added 7 new pics to My Pics. #8 to #15 I half-jokingly call my 'SuicideBoy Audition' pics that SuburbanSlave actually inspired me to do. They are for her, but you can look at 'em too if you want. No full frontal but if you don't like seeing a guy posing, don't go past pic #7. Don't say I didn't warn you.
They're kinda poor, my websam isn't that flexible a tool, and I frankly lacked any idea how to make it sexy...I apologise for that...
you know...I really like The Neverending Story
...
if you happen to pass by here, if you could, recommend me a book that's got fascinating science stuff with a touch of wonder. So far I've considered Hyperspace and The Dancing Wu-Li Masters. The latter seems to get mentioned alot if you read the kind of stuff I do.
...
I have horniness like the next guy, if not more of it, but i have rarely if ever thought with my penis. i have never in my life had the kind of sex which explains or justifies to me why people go apeshit over it, do stupid things, hurtful things in order to get it. That's right, I've never had 'good' sex. Whatever that is.
The 'Game' ceased long ago to be something about getting trophies and being some sort of virile dog. Now it's about feeling attractive, wanted and complete. If you can believe it, it's even harder on a guy than it is on a girl. But that may be because I only have my own experience and no one elses.
I don't think this is 'normal' male thought or behaviour.
...
EDIT:
I have finally completed my UCAS form. This Monday it goes by express to my Head of Department. Here is the final version of my Personal Statement. I removed all the names because when Gabriella elaborated I agreed with her that I should write more about my own ideas rather than about admiring somebody elses. Also, the space was a lot smaller.
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I chose Artificial Intelligence for I feel I have found a subject which combines the realm of the linear and the logic with the realm of the abstract and the tenebrous. More than machine language and silicon protocols, it is also the fascination of metaphysics, linguistics and psychology. Order and Chaos embraced, for sentience contains both. Although I expect to apply myself within the boundaries of a programming language, I don't see it as a limitation, but rather a poetic metaphor of ourselves.
In the gaming industry, A.I. is growing in importance as a feature of games. I would like to create A.I. indistinguishable from humans. By learning more about what makes us tick, then coding it, I hope to bestow qualities of hubris, paranoia, compassion, erraticism and even faith.
In a more ambitious humanitarian turn, I want to be able to create A.I. - married to the right equipment - that can help find land mines or missing persons. An A.I. that would learn from it's own experience, creatively interpret obscure patterns in it's experience and design it's own superior search algorithms.
Ultimately it is a way to delve deeply into what a 'mind' is. Within A.I., I gain a springboard and an anchor from which to explore. By learning to construct a 'mind' for one of our own creations, I may learn the secrets to unlocking the full potential of our own minds.
***
I had one line of space left. It will do well. I'm going to get accepted for sure. Just please let it be Reading!
***
EDIT #2:
I just added 7 new pics to My Pics. #8 to #15 I half-jokingly call my 'SuicideBoy Audition' pics that SuburbanSlave actually inspired me to do. They are for her, but you can look at 'em too if you want. No full frontal but if you don't like seeing a guy posing, don't go past pic #7. Don't say I didn't warn you.
They're kinda poor, my websam isn't that flexible a tool, and I frankly lacked any idea how to make it sexy...I apologise for that...
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we want to open our own skateboard shop one day and he's an incredible artist and i really believe if we live out there we could accomplish everything we've ever wanted and more. now i just have to let him realize that.
i hope. i can't wait to go and look at your pics.
looked at your pics.
you've changed so much. nuts.